Home Tour: Apple's Room

January 16, 2018

My sweet Apple baby's room!!! 

She and I both are in LOVE with this space.... so much of it is so specific to my sweet girl. The tea time table, the little kitchen area, the built-in bookshelf/desk area, the bed nook and the areas for her babies. 

My little nurturer. 

Apple says to me daily, " mama- I BFF you" and then I say...."baby, promise forever??" This little love is so thoughtful and is always looking to take care of everyone. I wanted her room to be a merge of everything that she loves and a space that will make her heart soar. 

Just last night I fell asleep curled up in her bed beside her and I had to fight back tears just thinking about how fast the time is going. 

I often times find her taking care of her babies, cooking in her kitchen, setting up tea parties, working at her desk....oh and always while her favorite playlist is going! 

This room is full of character, personality and special little details-
all perfect for my girl! 

Home Tour: Aiden's Room.

January 06, 2018

Excited to share a home tour of our new space!! 

Here is our sweet dino-loving boy, Aiden's room! 

Since Aiden was old enough to communicate his heart has loved all things dragon, dino, reptile and Godzilla! 

We wanted him to have a space that was special for him with everything that he loves! All his pets are here too on the back wall when you walk in. 

All of the furniture we found here at a place called First Monday. Some of the other small details I will link below! 

He LOVES him room which makes my heart soar. 
Before we moved here I would lay awake at night thinking about their rooms and the ways that I hoped that each of them felt in them. Grateful! 

2018. my word

January 02, 2018

I have thought about this for weeks and can't shake these words for 2018. 

Favor, Fruitful.

producing much fruit.
to regard with favor.

You will recognize them by their fruits. 
Claiming & praying favor and fruitfulness. 

Over myself, my family, my loved ones. 

I pray and pray and pray and think about what word He is pressing on my heart. Each time I can look back at the year and the word and see EXACTLY why He gave me that word. Each year I have needed that word, it has been a theme, it has defined the year. 

Little snippets from previous years:

2017. Soar:
fly or rise high in the air.
increase rapidly above the usual level.

SOAR was a theme for this past year absolutely...its incredible looking back and seeing it weaved perfectly throughout.

2016, was absolutely everything ABUNDANCE. I mean it was a life changing year in so many ways. Abundance in life, abundance in redemption.... it was literally the perfect word for the year. There was an entire life switch into abundance. 

"Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine according to His power that is at work within us."

2015. FREEDOM. 

"Little did I know how much I would need to embrace the word brave this year past year. So many things happened, so many hard roads, so much heartache. 2014 taught us much and I believe with my whole heart that 2015 is the spring after the long rain. It is the year of FREEDOM. My words for 2015 are BELIEVE & FREEDOM. I am going to claim them and let them take over every bit of me. I am claiming it now so that a year from now I can look back and say wow, those words were perfect for 2015.  

2014. BRAVE

For the past few years I have chosen a "word" for the year. 2014... my word is BRAVE. My whole life I have basically been the opposite of brave. I have been careful and I have been anxious. Ever since this post  I have been praying that I would be brave. I want my faith to be strong and to rest in His plan above my own...no matter what it holds. I have a feeling in my gut that this year is going to entail trusting Him a lot. 
I want to be brave. 
I want to take this one, beautiful, precious life and I want to live it well. 
I want to literally run towards the plans that He has for me. I don't want to hesitate, I want to soar... arms spread wide open. 

This morning I woke up and Aiden's arms were around my neck. I pulled back and the sunlight was perfectly shining in on his face. I ran my hands across his forehead to brush back his sweet hair and just  thanked God for him. Then I turned my head and Ainsleigh was there too. They must have crept down the hall in the night and snuck in beside us. Her eyelashes and pouty lips were perfectly still as her tiny little lungs rose and fell. I could hear Apple stirring nearby. My precious Appie. These babies are such a gift.... I mean truly a gift. And having open hands with their precious lives is such a struggle for me.
But this is my year...the year where I am brave. 

2013 was HOPE.

" I have tangible hope in multiple areas. God redeemed my heartache. Sometimes I wonder if we as humans encounter heartache, loss and sadness not only because this is a fallen and sinful world. An imperfect world. But also so that we can truly appreciate the joys as well. On a new level of appreciation. A new level of thanks. To balance out human perspective.This isn't heaven so we can't understand the whole picture. We must have hope to come out on the other side of tasting incredible sadness. I want to matter. and not in the "I am awesome and matter so much kind of way", I want my life to mean something. God has me here for a purpose and I am constantly seeking out what that is and what that looks like. I want my life to matter. I want to give hope. "

2012 was CHANGE.

"I have roots that run deep. 

The old me that I am constantly fighting... insecure, unforgiving, entitled....it's time to uproot and CHANGE.
 So this year I will keep the word peace as a daily mission and add the word change. 
Because it's time. 
Those poisonous roots have been in me far too long."

2011 was PEACE.

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God. Matthew 5:9 My all time favorite book, "A Beautiful Offering" has a chapter on peace... "When you decide to live out what you believe. When you decide you want peace in your possession, then you will find out what that looks like & feels like. You begin to pray for God to give you peace. You incorporate peace in your relationships. You decide to respond differently. You speak in love. Act in tenderness. You imitate what you know about peace until it becomes a reality for your character & your life." It is so convicting. Dying to your desire. Dying to your flesh. "He restores what has been broken & heals what has been wounded. I don't have peace because I figured it all out. I have peace because I believe in Christ."

These are the Days.

December 28, 2017

December has been so full....moving, traveling, doing....it has been a beautiful whirlwind. 
The phrase that keeps coming to mind though is that these are the days.

The days that I dreamed of for so so long. All these precious moments with family are cherished by the minute- held so tight sometimes I think my heart just might burst. 

My little Adelaide Grace 💫. 
Y’all. This crib. We bought it when I was pregnant with my first and all four babies have used it. I’ve slept in that crib, next to that crib.... I’ve rocked next to it, cried, laughed & prayed by that crib. It holds memories, motherhood and all my childhood dreams all in that piece. My throat tightens just at the thought of the day well pack it up for the last time

My two cuties all dressed in red & green for the last day of school! 

One of my favorite things in the world is those sweet quiet moments at bedtime. I have those sweet moments where I can connect with each kiddo- ask them what they need, ask them how their heart is, hear their sweet prayers uninterrupted.....have their attention just in the quiet of the night. 

Thank you Jesus for these beautiful gifts. I can't imagine a greater one. 

Even in traveling this Christmas, I kept thinking about that saying " home is where the heart is."- it's true...if they are there, its home. 

My beautiful flower girls- they were breathtaking.

Waiting for Meme and Poppie to arrive! 

Excited for 2018. I am ready. 
Christmas was magic, 2017 was life-changing....literally cant wait to see what 2018 holds.

on to the next chapter.

November 29, 2017

The home that we are leaving holds so much redemption for us. Its walls are filled with a flood of change that washed over us when we had almost nothing left. It represents a simple, shaking "yes" to the Lord's continual prompting on our lives and after years and years of struggle and loss and hard things, the tides shifted in that home. 

We begin moving the first wave of things this week and should be full moved over in the next few weeks. I hate saying goodbye to our sweet house but so excited for all the new adventures in this new space.

I lost babies in that home and then brought home my last double rainbow to that doorstep. 
My precious Adelaide Grace, that I literally cant imagine our world without. 

The kids are so excited for this next chapter and so are we. We are ready to see what these new walls will hold for us.

We have been spending time at park I grew up playing at. And now to see my babies sitting on the same fishing ledge, playing at the same spots- spots filled with beautiful memories. I am so grateful. 

Excited to share each room and the spaces as we move in and get settled! I sit and daydream at night about how to make each of the kid's rooms as special as possible, to make the magic come to life for them there. 

and Christmas, can you imagine a more perfect time to do just that? :)

The Grinch!

November 20, 2017

I am completely in love with the magic of Christmas and am sooooo excited to surprise our kiddos with tickets to go see the Grinch, they are going to flip! Dr. Seuss' beloved holiday tale, How the Grinch Stole Christmas, is a favorite in our house!!

I really cannot wait, I know they will never forget it!  

If you're in Dallas, you can check out tickets here!!! 

Opening night is December 5th, yay! As many sweet memories as I can make with my babies is priority for me! I hope they always remember the time in the kitchen together with the gingerbread houses, the sugar cookies, the holiday music, the traditions around the tree, the musicals and more. 

After the show, I will share all about our special night!