Sharing my Baby

April 27, 2009


Sharing my baby....a lesson I am slowly learning. Even though I have known him only 5 weeks I love him with a love that is so deep it is scary. Again I am going to be quoting from my favorite book, A Beautiful Offering, by Angela Thomas. I try and reread this book as often as I can for a constant reminder of my convictions. My new lesson I am learning is to love this precious baby with open hands. This is harder for me than most...I guess? I need to share him better. Why is it that I feel so uncomfortable to see others smother my baby with love and affection...that should be a huge joy in my heart, right? It is strange how often times it makes me feel out of place. Like that special love is a sacred thing...only for Chris and I. Sounds crazy right? I have spoken with other moms and they say you grow past that with time. An article I read when I was pregnant said that a new mom often feels like a lion with her a cub...your fierce protective instinct kicks in. Well, I knew I would experience these emotions but not necessarily to this extent. Here is my passage for the week...this is what I will try to remember and am slowly trying to live by.....

"When a woman has a kingdom heart, she has an active understanding of what matters most to the heart of God. She lives in the balance of passion and contentment. She learns to love well, give without regard to self, and forgive without hesitation. The woman with a kingdom heart may have a duffel bag full of possessions or enough treasures to fill a mansion, but she has learned to hold them with an open hand. Hold everything with open hands. I don't think we are ever allowed to grab hold of anything or anyone as though they matter more than the kingdom of heaven. When you hold relationships with open hands, then people come in and out of your life as gifts of grace to be cherished and enjoyed, not objects to be owned and manipulated. And then when you hold your dreams with open hands, you get to watch God resurrect what seemed dead and multiply what seemed small."


Here is a pic of our little man with his daddy....they are best buds :).

3 comments:

  1. That's a really difficult challenge. Even though people tell you, I had no idea that having a baby would change everything so completely. In wonderful ways but also in hard ones.

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  2. Casey,
    That was beautiful. I admire your mother's heart, but mostly your heart for the Lord and desiring to be His in this process.
    - Natalie

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  3. Casey,
    That was beautiful. I admire your mother's heart, but mostly your heart for the Lord and desiring to be His in this process.
    - Natalie

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