a coffee.date

April 25, 2011

It's time for coffee (hot chocolate for me). If you were coming over for a hot chocolate date I would probably tell you

"I'm itching to be pregnant again"
I'm not in any rush....I know I just had Ainsleigh :)....and Aiden not too much before that. I also know that some people are desperately trying for their first...so this is not a heavy post. It's just that Chris and I have always felt called to have a big family. I have absolutely no idea how we will provide for them all (I know if God calls us to have many children then He will provide)....and medically with c-sections not exactly sure how many I will be "allowed" to have....but I am ready for another :).

A few people recently have commented that Chris & I seem to "embrace" our children as they are....I think that is very beautifully put. I know people could give me a list of reasons why Aiden shouldn't have a paci or drink his milk from bottles, or why Ainsleigh should be sleeping through the night on a schedule, or why Aiden should have a strict bedtime...the list goes on.

That just isn't how we do things. 

So you would probably see Aiden walking around with his pasie and blankies and cuddling me asking me for a bottle. And sweet Ainsleigh, this little lady is all smiles.

My babies will only be little once & embracing that is exactly what we do.

There are moments that I can tell Aiden needs a little extra love... he sees me talking sweet to Ainsleigh and will lower his head a little. I would probably tell you that last night was one of those times.
I handed Ainsleigh off to Chris, scooped up Aiden and took him into Ainsleigh's room where our rocking chair is. I have really bad singing voice but since Aiden doesnt seem to mind... I put him in my lap and rocked/sang to him. Everytime I would start to slow down he would do the sign for "more"....

I can't tell you how I cherish these times. I just want to freeze time, soak them into the deepest parts of my soul. I would do anything for my babies.
I want lots of them.
I want to love them well, raise them, give them the light of Jesus and send them into the world to change it.

You would see in my eyes that my littles, they are the light of our lives.
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I would also probably tell you that my marriage is SOAKING up having Christopher home. We all needed him home, but I really did. Obviously this new journey we are on is scary (post here)....and most days we are in a really scary place with money but really I couldn't put a price on the moments we are having with Christopher around. It's bringing a calm, a peace to a very long/hard year.

Laughter. Snuggles. Silly moments. 
We needed that.

I am thankful. 

If we had hot chocolate, what would you tell me?! 



  1. you are beautiful....and I feel ya on wanting more babies...if I was only a millionaire girl!


  2. I'd tell you that sometimes I leave your blog up for a long time listening to your play list over and over while I clean or play with my kids or work.
    I'd tell you that while we are currently also "unemployed" with a job starting in June, I too want another baby. My family would think I was nuts, but Brad and I feel called to have whatever family God sees fit so we don't birth control it. Not controlling is hard for me and while this last week (we've been living it for a week. lol) seemed so scary at first.. it has been so liberating. Giving into the God's desires for me and what is really in my heart.
    I'd tell you that the emotion in our house is almost like we are newlyweds with the added bonuses of two amazing kiddos.
    I'd probably have prefaced all of this by asking you not to tell anyone because everyone would think we were crazy, but I'm confident that God doesn't think that. That my family read my "on my heart" post this week and then uninvited me to Easter lunch. I'd tell you that when it talks about being under attack when following God's will..it even includes your family. Yet I somehow have peace.
    Here's to our bellies whenever they bump up! ;)

  3. I really desperately want to be pregnant again too.....everyone thinks I'm crazy (my first pregnancy was very scary) but I absolutely loved every minute of being pregnant. We are adopting now but I hope someday God will bless us with another healthy pregnancy :)

  4. i love your heart, girl and i admire you guys for wanting a big family! i esp. love the trust that you place in God to provide.

    thanks for sharing.
    and oh as much as i love hot chocolate, would it be bad if i brought myself some coffee? ;)

  5. I.love.you.girl! I love your heart for the Lord. He's going to bless your socks off! Hebrews 11:1.

    You go girl!

  6. this is why I adore you!! Not only because I love hot chocolate in April(in Texas) but, because of your sweet love for your cherubs. Your heart is beautiful!! You are precious to me. I would love to have a hot chocolate date. It touched my heart that you thought of those who are waiting on their first. I'm sure whether it's your 1st or 3rd or 5th, the desire and the waiting still gets tough. We have those dreams and desires grasped so tightly in our hands. Love you sister!!

  7. Yup. Exactly how I feel. Did I expect anything less? I teared up when you talked about sitting with Aiden in the rocking chair just cuddling. I'm so happy that you cherished that moment. I'm all about those sweet snuggly one-on-ones. Wish I could share that hot chocolate with you!

  8. casey you always blog about what's on my heart. i've been itching for another, too, and i don't look as good as you do pregnant. and the way you talk about your babies, how you just let them be little, that's us.
    g'pa mustache and gammy lila (weird names but that's the grandparents names!) were here for easter and we let the kids skip naps.
    it's one day! they'll be fine.
    love to you. man we would get along in real life.

  9. I would tell you..(over our hot chocolate and coffee) that you are an AMAZING mama. Casey..you make my day a lot of days. :) Reading your words and how much you love you babies and Chris makes me so happy and it also makes me love my littles and Mark more. I have never met (virtually speaking) a more calm person than you. Can we please hang out in person? lol God is doing an amazing work in you. Please keep going. Love you friend. xoxo

  10. Seriously, this is so sincerely beautiful. From wanting more babies to holding your boy and giving him some extra loving, it is all too sweet. I can't have anymore natural children (we think about adopting), but my Dr. always jokes that I'd be the mom to keep on going. : ) God will provide for you and He knows the right time for everything in your life.

  11. You are seriously adorable and precious !! I have missed your last few posts as my little one has kept me very busy. I too would love more babies, but age is such a huge factor for us so we will just be blessed with the 2 we have. I pray the Lord blesses you with your hearts desire for a large family.

  12. ME TOO! *but the idea of traveling back and forth between Singapore & Dallas with two littles just doesn't sound appealing - i promised Mike we can reconsider early next year.
    I love baby bottles - Elle still drinks milk out of hers AND drinks them at nap time and bed time still - she can only fall asleep peacefull with her baba and i love it. I don't think i'll ever be able to break her of that - but i really really really REALLY believe, they grow out of it when they're ready and to let them do things in their own time, so with you on that!!!
    love u!
    xoxo / BTW we're having a real hot choco date this fall!!

  13. ! OH and we'd talk about how to keep diapers on babies in the middle of the night - elle likes to completely undress, including her diaper every night. Lately, I go downstairs, have coffee, AND THEN go get her so i'm prepared and awake and ready to face the disaster ahead. need so much advice from u and so many random things about raising a toddler :))

  14. I would tell you how much I miss our "coffee dates", even though we haven't actually ever had coffee. No guilt trip here ... just want you to know how much I cherish you!! You are such a wonderful listener and we have SO much in common!! You are like the sister I never had and I thank God for you!! :-) Love you, bestie!!!

  15. i come from a family of 6 and my husband from 11. we both want a big family, too. i just really hate being pregnant, which makes me sad. i wish i enjoyed it more. we're open to what God is doing and has for us, though, so we are at peace with what He brings! my 2 year old still uses his sippy cup like a bottle and carries his blanket with him wherever he goes. it's kind of part of who he is and we're ok with it, too. kids can be kids for a little bit :)

  16. Casey,
    I love hearing your heart for the Lord and your sweet family! William and I parent Jackson similarly, we just enjoy these days of him being little. He still sleeps with us most night, doesn't have a bed time, we snuggle him to sleep, carry him all the time, go out for late night treats, I could go on, but we just know there will come a day when we'll wish he would come snuggle up between us in our bed, so we soak it up now while we can! This makes me so excited to meet our second little one due later this summer. There's just plenty of time for them to be big kids later on, have you heard the song "Let them be Little" ? I think you would like it!! Keep loving on your sweet kiddos!!
    Love you!
    Katie West

  17. me too, me too! (Ive got the itch)...Like yal, we're just in a season of believing God for preggo-ness, money, and all that and that HIS timing will be prefect. Im so thankful for you sharing your heart here Casey. You know Ive told you before...we try to do the same. People that judge me for giving Abigail a paci, or that she hasnt "made the switch" to a sippy cup...well, I know what my little girl needs most, and im EMBRACING it regardless. :) we are their mommies for a reason!! LoVe YoU!

  18. Thanks for sharing and be blessed today!

  19. As a mom, you know instinctively and intuitively what is best for your children. If you follow your heart, love them to bits, everything will be fine. It's those days or times when we don't trust our inner voice that can trip us up. So remind yourself that Momma Knows Best.

  20. I'd tell you that I want another little one as soon as possible too. That my little Noah has made me a better person and I'm ready for him to have a little brother or sister to love on...and then another and another...:o)
    I'd also tell you that your words are so encouraging to me. I love how you embrace your kids. It's so easy to be caught up in trying to keep up with everyone else...I love that you embrace your moment and want to be like that too.

  21. sniff,sniff...a little behind on the blog reading but glad I came across yours today. I've been blessed 4x with kiddos and my cup overflows. But I really want to adopt. But when...You know? Struggling with waiting on God's timing on that, and also what He has next for my husband (a recovering pastor pushed out of a church....story still too raw for blogland) anyways, thanks for sharing. I heart your heart, girl!

  22. first, you are beautiful...seriously...one of the cutest little pregnant women i've ever seen :)

    second, i'd be drinking coffee...but it would be decaf with milk...i drink it for the taste, so i don't need that caffeine.

    third, i would tell you that i'm struggling with being content. i feel like i'm in season where i'm having trouble being where the Lord has placed me. i have these huge desires of my heart that i know in time will be fulfilled. i know that He's promised me this and i just have to keep pushing forward, but it's so hard to be patient and wait. i love the verse in psalm 46:10 "be still, and know that I am God." i just have to remember to be still and rest in Him. i know His plan for me is so much greater than i could ever imagine.

    and fourth, i would tell you thank you for this coffee date. it made my day....and i'd give you a hug :)

    love you friend!

  23. Girl I'm right there with ya! I'm waiting until after January (have I told you about my 29th birthday party? I want a petting zoo and cocktails....and no the petting zoo isnt for the kids its for the child in all of us) and then we're going for child number dos. PS love you dearly and love talking on the phone with you and Big A at like 10:30pm :)

  24. Well, first I would tell you how much I adore you and your blog. Everytime I get in my blogger I quickly scan to see if there's anything new from you. Thanks for the sharing :)
    Then I'd tell you that I can't wait to be pregnant for the first time! Thanks for making it sound exciting, as opposed to a drag :)

  25. My lands... hmm... I might just say Praise the Lord that He gave us freedom in a new covenant. Freedom to love and nurture... to raise our children up for Him and not focus on textbook parenting. I might also say that you have the smallest pregnant bellies that I have ever seen. And in closing, I'd say where' the whip on my hot cocoa lady? :)

  26. my first time here. I came by for 'coffee'. I love that your embrace your little ones. I am a mom of three grown daughters and sometimes when I was in the 'middle of it all' raising them and going through it...I wish I would have STOPPED and just embraced it and them, because you my dear are so right...it goes by very fast! Enjoy it all, enjoy the ride!

  27. I am new here but...
    I would tell you that my oldest is going to be 15 years old soon and sometimes I cry because I miss her babyhood. I would tell you that we "embraced her" as she was sleeping in a bathing suit for a year (when she was 3). Having to listen to the soundtrack of Out Of Africa For a Year (when she was an infant). I would tell you that my 10 year old still sleeps with her "blankie" and that I had to rock her to sleep til she was three. I would tell you that your love of Jesus, your babies and your husband shines thru your posts and it is a pleasure to visit here!
    I would love to have hot chocolate with you!

  28. Those photos of your little girl is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen! You are a gorgeous family!

  29. You said that perfectly!! Beautiful family you have!