working out our faith.
December 23, 2011
I mentioned on Monday that Christopher's grandmother passed away the end of last week. I have been to funerals and even one open casket before but it had been awhile. We went to the funeral (open casket) and the burial (which that was a first for me) and I just came home sick to my stomach.
I know all of the truths...I know she is in heaven with God/ in perfection, but I just couldn't shake the pit in my stomach. Everything felt really fast to me.
At the funeral when everyone was walking by her for the last time...I kept thinking "what if that was Chris or the babies or a close friend"...and I just had to hurry and say bye to them in front of all these people and then the body be buried forever. (I need to remember back to my tiny shells post).
We got home and Christopher and I were pretty quiet all night...then after the babies were asleep and we were sitting in the stillness....I uttered the sentence I was nervous to even say outloud-
"Christopher, did today make you think...even for a moment- I hope we are right about all of this?"
He's always so sweet...he said...you know God talks about in the bible that it is good for us to work out our faith.
It is good to ask questions and work through it in your mind.
So for about an hour we talked about Jesus' life and what the bible says of heaven.
After my miscarriage so so many people said I should read "Heaven is for real"....I really really wanted to, I just hadn't made it a priority to go get and start! So the next day Chris surprised me and bought the book. I am only 2 chapters in but so excited to finally be reading it!
Have any of you read it?!
I am grateful that I have the grace to work out my faith and the hope in heaven.