early mornings

March 06, 2012



Early morning. Chris got up around 7:30 for an early meeting. I wake easily so I sat up. 
Both babies still sound asleep. Ains in her crib, aiden next to me. There is a window in our room and the sun was peeking through perfectly on his face. I thought about the laundry still sitting in the dryer from
last night and the pile of dishes in the sink. But I couldn't stop staring at him. 
all that stuff can wait. 
I laid back down, pulled the covers up to my chin and watched Aiden. 
His long lashes closed over those big blue eyes. His sweet cheeks and his lips pursed out. 
Someday, someday he'll be big- he'll be as tall as his daddy, hair on those cheeks, rougher skin. I won't be able to pull him close to me- hold him to my chest and sleep with him in my arms. He will outgrow this, 
it's inevitable. 
I laid there praying over him through teary eyes until about 8:30. Then I went and checked the video monitor- ainsleigh, asleep. I didn't care. Went and got her- got her a milk and pulled her into my bed. She was giggling and snuggling close. 
I smelled her neck, her cheeks. All 3 of us slept till past 9:30. Both of their hot cheeks near mine, watching their chests move up and down and sweet little breath flowing from their tongues.
Time was standing still for a few hours. 

Being a mama is hard. 
There are tantrums, tired nights, morning sickness that lasts all day....
But I just can't shake the thought of what an incredible blessing I have been given. 
It changes how I see everything. 
God trusted me with these sweet little spirits. 
me.
And it's moving so fast.












56 comments:

  1. Thinking of you today friend!!! Be BLESSED x

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  2. Such a beautiful and sweet post! Love all the pictures!

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  3. You so encouraging. Your words always lift me up. Thank you for writing about your life! I love reading!!

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  4. Oh man. I feel the exact same way. At the end of the day when the house is a hot mess with toys all over, dishes on the table and laundry still needing to be put away...Thats when I know it's been a good day. Sweet babies playing with those toys, little tummies full and sweet bodies to wear the laundry. So thankful for this season. Sure do love you!!!!

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  5. What a sweet post!!! I try to soak in this time as well. Before we know it these babies will be all grown up!!

    Hope your pregnancy is going well!

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  6. what a perfect morning, so amazing to be given the gift of mommyhood. i was just posting yesterday about how big my babies are getting...if we could only freeze these moments. thank you for your beautiful post.

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  7. this is precious :) you are such a sweet mother, your little ones and hubby are blessed.

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  8. It's hard to be in the moment sometimes with all the other craziness a mom endures...so, well done for savoring that time. It goes by way too fast, it's really not fair.

    Oh, and did I spot some sour patch watermelons? :) I pretty much live off of those.

    -Kristen

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  9. i know exactly how you feel. beautifully said.

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  10. Beautiful that you pull them close and can still sleep with them. I wish that my son would sleep with me.

    And thank you for writing that it's hard...because sometimes in this blogging world, I feel like everyone writes about how wonderful motherhood is...and act like the bad days don't happen.

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  11. You are so inspiring. Your family was in my dream the other night! :) You make me excited to have kids one day. You are so beautiful inside and out and the love you have for your family is SO inspiring. I wish I knew you personally! I feel like I have so much to learn from you. Thank you for sharing your life with us.

    Chelsea

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  12. I feel the same way... I could cuddle them in bed for hours without a care in the world. It makes everything worth while!

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  13. oh goodness, definitely sweet spirits in deed. and that last picture of aiden sleeping is more than precious!!
    xo TJ

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  14. We are so blessed. I love my babies so much and it's amazing how much they change our world when they come into it.

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  15. So sweet! And I am so jealous that you got to lounge in bed that late! I don't think I've stayed in bed past 7am since I had my daughter almost 3 years ago! What a blessing.

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  16. I know exactly what you mean. I have a 5 month old, and I try to make time each day to hold her on my chest while she is sleeping. It doesn't always happen, but when it does, all I can think about is that in too short a time she won't be a baby anymore and want to be held like this. Your posts have the tendency to put into words what I also am feeling as a mama. Thank you! K @ nuggetonabudget.blogspot.com

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  17. As a yet to be momma... These little moments make me more excited to become one someday. :)

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  18. This is just what I needed to read!! Time really does just fly by. It's incredible that you know what a blessing you have :) Trust in God. It's a beautiful thing.

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  19. Just because they grow up doesn't mean that you don't get to love on them anymore.. You'll always be a momma to them, a really really wonderful momma. They will be able to appreciate how much you loved and cared for them someday. You can share memories together, and watch them grow up wanting to be just like you and chris. :) Thank you for sharing your heart, I'm struggling with the realization of time moving quickly too. have a blessed week :) -lauren

    ps. ainsleigh and those sticks again.. SO funny. :)

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  20. you got me all excited to be a mama!!! i already am so ecstatic, but when i read things like this i get all excited all over again! absolutely adore this post and the first pic with ainsleigh and her sticks--- sooo precious xo

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  21. your words are so lovely.
    can't help but giggle at the first picture with ainsleigh holding her sticks :)

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  22. Awww. I know how you feel in all the wonderful words you wrote here.

    I am so blessed that God chose ME to be Judah, Ora and Ari's mother! It's just amazing!

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  23. I often pray that my little girls will one day find husbands that have been loved and prayed over the way you do over yours. Bless you in your journey of motherhood.

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  24. Your post made me cry! It made me think about how much time is lost cleaning and doing useless things... When our babies are growing up so fast in front of our eyes and they'll be gone and we won't be able to just go into their room and snatch them up & hug them until our hearts content! It makes you realize you need to stop and relish in those moments when you have them!!!

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  25. That is just an amazing and perfect morning! How wonderful!

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  26. can't wait for my boy to be born so I can have these precious little moments with him!

    Allyssa
    breakfastatthezemkes.blogspot.com

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  27. My heart melts. Amazing God. Amazing treasures. Amazing lives. Precious.

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  28. Ah ... so sweet to catch those cuddly moments. I still do it with my adult daughters ... catch those moments they want to talk, or pray or just hang out.


    Fondly,
    Glenda

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  29. Casey,
    Such a beautiful post. I love the way you love your children. An excellent reminder that our time with them is so short. Thank you.

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  30. It IS moving so fast! I can't even think about how fast they are growing or I will cry!! You're sweet babies are so precious!

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  31. Beautiful photos my sweet friend

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  32. You are so right. I had a rough day today; a meltdown over something as silly as my dad lending a helping hand and loading my dishwasher. I became really sad when I read about others who have 2 year olds and are pregnant, saying how hard it is. I ache to have another baby, but it is not a part of our story. Then I felt utterly horrible for being a hypocrite, because there are so many women who ache to have just one child, and I do have struggles every single day, moving through chemo like side effects from medications, but I am blessed. I don't know why God chose me with this tremendous miracle, but I have to live it out and love this little girl while I am here on earth with her.

    Thank you Casey.

    xo.

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  33. I love how perfect you put your thoughts into words. I love your sweet tender moments you share with us. Being a mom is for sure such a wonderful blessing. And it reminds you just how much those little simple moments mean the most.

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  34. Beautiful post Casey - I remember feeling this same way when my son was little. I can tell you, he's 15 now, and I sometimes wish I could go back in time to feel that "newness" and hold him close. Now, it's different. I'm one proud mama, but reading your "heart posts" just makes me remember those times with such love.

    They grow so fast. I love the way you are so present in every moment. Always keep that feeling close precious friend!

    Love those photos - I see Ains has her sticks again! xoxo

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  35. You nailed it right on the head with motherhood. You are so sweet =) Such sweet kids too.

    - Sarah
    http://agirlintransit.blogspot.com

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  36. Gosh she's soo cute with her sticks!!!

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  37. Casey you have such a way with words--it is posts like this that make me so excited to be a Mum when/if I can :)

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  38. Casey you have such a way with words--it is posts like this that make me so excited to be a Mum when/if I can :)

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  39. beautiful images. beautiful family. amazing story.

    Tiffany
    www.thejonescoffeehouse.blogspot.com

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  40. thank you for the reminder to take a moment and just thank God for our sweet blessings. :)

    your daughter cracks me up with her bundle o sticks!

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  41. What a sweet sweet post! I love this!

    The pictures are wonderful! You have such a beautiful spirit casey!

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  42. Thanks for sharing your life and heart with us!!! Love you Case! XOXO

    Katie

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  43. I feel the same way! Childhood passes all too quickly. I have a tweenager, an almost tweenager, and a 9 month old. The littlest one constantly makes me think of just how precious & fleeting their childhood is! It's such a blessing. Hold them close for as long as you can! :)

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  44. it goes way too fast! I had days like that too where there was nothing else I wanted to do but sit and stare at my sweet baby either in my arms or next to me in bed. many hours spent doing that and I don't regret it one bit, NO, I wish for MORE hours doing just that!
    tara

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  45. I can't explain to you how much I am grateful for you. And your reminder to savor every moment mine is little. Everyone says when you get pregnant "Cherish every moment. They grow up too fast."

    But it's easy to get swallowed up by the fast pace of life. Thank you so so so much for reminding me each and every day to slow down. I need it.

    http://dramaticatticboutique.blogspot.com

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  46. lovely post:) and what a great reminder to enjoy our children for they are sweet spirits in our possession for such a short time, ultimately they are gifts from God and not ours to keep forever! so hard to even trust Heavenly Father with that idea....

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  47. being a mama is definitely hard work.. but SOO worth it for the smiles!!

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  48. Before reading your post on cosleeping, I had never even considered it. But as soon as my daughter was born, it just felt right. My husband asked, "Can she just sleep with us? I'm afraid sh'ell get cold by herself."

    So that night, in our midwife's home, our little one slept in the bed with us. And she has ever since. I can't imagine it differently. My husband and I both sometimes just kiss her in the middle of the night. It's wonderful for nursing, so much easier than getting out of bed. And as you described it's the Best just to lay in bed and watch them sleep next to you.

    What a beautiful post!

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  49. What a wonderful, lovely, beautiful, amazing post....

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  50. Cool photos!
    Adorable family!

    Allie Ruth Morris

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  51. I really appreciated this post. :-)

    My thoughts:
    http://theseconversations.com/2012/03/16/being-a-mama/

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