sweet baby!

March 10, 2012

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**I picked up Chris from the airport late last night and wanted to give him the chance to see the pics and hear everything before I posted! 


I drove in tears to my sono yesterday. 
Half out of fear, half because of all the emails and texts rolling in. I felt so covered in prayer and so loved. I have to admit something. Before I had my miscarriage I never worried once in prior pregnancies. I had such a confidence that everything would be fine. 
The truth is I never tasted pregnancy the way I am now.

I got to my appointment 30 minutes early and prayed through the entire 30 minutes of waiting. Legs bouncing, lump in my throat. I re.read what Chris wrote me:
"It's all going to be okay... and if it is not okay.... we will still be okay."


My name is called and here I go again, down the long long hall to the sono room.

I said to her, "I want to record this one on DVD."

You guys, I cried like I did when I saw my babies for the first time. I cried like I did giving birth to the first two.
This baby is so beautiful. 
Was kicking, waving, bouncing all around with a strong heartbeat. 
I have never experienced pregnancy this way.
I am so so incredibly thankful for all of your sweet notes to me- each one touched me more than you know.

Also at Aiden and Ainsleigh's 13 week sonos I had her guess the gender and she was right both times! I had her guess today as well by what she saw....
I have to keep you hanging though :).

Meet our sweet sweet baby!
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106 comments:

  1. So happy for you!! I have been anxiously awaiting a post from you. God is so good!

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  2. Really happy for you Casey!!! Praying for you and this sweet baby!

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  3. What an amazing blessing. Seeing those first little waves and kicks makes all those worries fade so fast. SO happy for you.

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  4. OMGosh I am so happy to hear your sono went well! I was laying in bed last night thinking of you and praying we would hear good news. Continued prayers for your family and your little one! <3

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  5. casey!!!! i have been so anxious to hear how things went! praise the Lord. each child is truly a miracle. i am SO excited for you guys!
    "Lord, hold this sweet baby in your arms as he or she continues to develop. i thank you that you are knitting this baby together according to your perfect plan. i pray that Baby would hear mommy's voice and be comforted..thank you for all the ways you are going to use Baby to do things for your kingdom. amen!"

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  6. My heart is so overwheled with Joy for you and Chris :D I know how badly you want this baby..and I also know the struggles you've had in the past. But I also believe that God knows our hearts and he hears our prayers. I will continue to pray for you and your family! Love you sweet friend xoxo

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  7. So happy for you!!!!!!!! Praying this pregnancy is the easiest yet!

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  8. So beautiful!! God is GREAT. Praying for your sweet little family, that everything continues to go great in this pregnancy :)

    I've been thinking girl since you first announced your pregnancy, but any gender would be a sweet blessing for your family :) So excited for you!

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  9. That's awesome! We just went in for ours a few days ago. It's AMAZING!

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  10. You have so much boundless love for your babies. Praying today for the reminder that your love is so much like His! :)

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  11. Just beautiful! Praying your baby arrives safe and sound in your arms!

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  12. glad everything is going well for you! you're a wonderful mama!!

    xo

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  13. With tears in my eyes as I write this...I am so very happy for you and your sweet family! God is good all this time and ALL the time God is good! Just praising Him right now.

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  14. So happy that you got to see your baby and it's tiny heart beat.

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  15. *Sigh* I'v got a big lump in my throat ..... so happy for you!
    What a sweet sweet baby!

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  16. I'm honestly so happy for you and your family <3
    You are such a wonderful, wonderful lady and I wish only the best for you!

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  17. I haven't personally gone through a miscarriage so I'm can't even begin to image what you're going through. I do know that God will never put us through something we're not strong enough to handle. Sometimes that had to realizing in the moment when we're going though it but once we have, we can look back and see our strength gained and how God moved with us every step of the way. What I repeat in my head all the time is - Love Never Fails.

    Congratulations! You're an amazing mother.
    http://our-reflection.blogspot.com/

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  18. This is so AWESOME! So happy to hear that things went well =)

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  19. Awesome! Thrilled for you guys xoxo

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  20. I am beyond happy for you and your family. I was thinking of you....

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  21. SO happy for you, friend!!!!!! Will keep praying

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  22. I know this is so strange because i dont know you, but i was so anxious when i went to read your blog and didnt see an update!! im so pleased for you!! :)

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  23. *tears in my eyes* I'm so happy for your family.

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  24. That is so wonderful!! You have been in my prayers. Glory be to God!!

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  25. AAAAhhhh111 Yay, I'm so happy for you blessing. Now you can rest easy and enjoy! You should take a poll for the gender. Super fun!


    - Sarah
    http://agirlintransit.blogspot.com

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  26. Yay! So happy for you! What a blessing!
    Ashley:)

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  27. SOOOO excited for you guys!!!

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  28. Congratulations! Prayed for you and your little one : ) So happy to hear all is well!

    Jenn

    passengerseatperspectives.blogspot.com

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  29. Casey,
    I have been thinking about you and know some of what you are feeling and experiencing. After having my first two I had a miscarriage. Then just two weeks later I found out I was expecting again. I didn't even think it was possible. But God had this baby planned out before the creation of the world. I, like you, experienced a new "fear" as I reflected on the loss I had just been through. I worried before each appointment. I prayed more through that pregnancy for the health of my baby then I did with my previous two combined. I trusted God in a whole new way and everything appeared fine through the whole pregnancy. The day came 12 days before my due date and when my baby girl came into this world tears flooded my heart and soul. Until the nurses seemed concerned. The room grew hushed and I just felt something was going wrong. My baby girl was full-term, but tiny {4 lbs. 6 oz.} for no apparaent reason. I prayed again and trusted God and brought home a perfectly healthy tiny baby girl 48 hours later. Our family felt whole and everything seemed to be just as I imagined it to be. {con't in next comment}

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  30. But I still was more concerned than ever about my tiny healthy girl. I watched her much more closely than I had my other two babies. I savored every moment with all three of my growing children and felt God's blessings in a rich and wonderful way. I realized that being a mother was truly a gift from God and I took my calling seriously. I grew very concerned at age 3 weeks when my new baby didn't seem to be eating enough and had a tiny bit of a cold that winter. I listened closely as she slept making sure her breathing was steady and strong. I began to think maybe I was just an overreactive mother after she came home from a trip to the ER because of my concern for her being dehydrated. The physician said she was fine. "Just keep her propped up when she sleeps and she'll be fine in a day or two." You can only imagine my horror when I found her truning blue just moments after I had placed her in her carseat to rest for her afternoon nap that day. She was airlifted downstate and put on a respirator and you can believe I have never prayed and begged God to spare a tiny life more than I prayed for the next 5 days. I didn't sleep. I could hardly eat. Test after test revealed nothing...so we simply waited. {con't again...}

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  31. My husband was at my side the whole time and he spoke the most comforting words to me when I was so weary and worn and beginning to doubt the outcome of the prayers I was pouring out. He said, "We can't lose in this situation, you know that, right?" He continued, "Either Wyndham will recover and be healed here on earth and we will take her home again. Or God will take her to Heaven for all eternity and we'll see her again someday. But either way we win!" He was so sure of what he was saying. He was so confident in the way God was going to work- whether it was how our hearts wanted things to play out or not. I remember the peace that flooded over me at that thought. It was though God himself had spoke through my husband and at that moment my prayers turned from, "God please spare my little girl" to "God, give me peace no matter how you choose to heal my baby- on Heaven or on earth". We took Wyndham home the very next day. She was on some medication and had a heart and oxygen moniter on her for the next few months, but we had received her back. And it was amazing to know that God had heard the cried of my heart and He was working in my heart and our lives to bend my heart toward Him. Even through a scary situation. {okay...this is getting long and I apologize that it won't post all in one comment.}

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  32. As my husband drove away from the hospital that day he gave me the biggest hug and said, "This is the best day of my life and the best part is we never have to come back here again!" I was still scared for my little girl, but so filled with a new kind of happiness at holding a miracle in my arms. I knew God was fully in control. I remember wanting to tell the whole world what God had just done for us in giving us back our baby. Our family felt complete as we walked through the door of our home with Wyndham again. Little did we know that just 6 months later {to the day!} Wyndham would be airlifted and placed inthe very same bed as she had just been discharged from...and our other two children and my husband would be airlifted in critical condition to the same hospital too. You know my story and loss of Teagan as we sat eating Sunday brunch together. It was and still is unimaginable to me that our happy family of 5 had our lives turned upside-down on a sunny afternoon. Never in a million years could I have imagined all 3 of my kids fighting for their lives and my husband too. After all the praying and praising God and trusting Him with our lives and hearts and future. All this to say that even when things seem so "perfect" and they are playing out just as we would have our lives unfold, we still need to trust and rely on God 100% of the time. {yes, still more story!}

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  33. My perfect little baby that survived 2 life threatening incidents and has had other scary medical conditions as a result is now 11 years old and she will never be independent or do many of the things I dreamed she would do. But I know that God has perfectly numbered all the days of her life. I know that He didn't plan for our lives and hearts to be shattered and broken and bruised, but we live in a fallen world and He is a redeemer and when we give everything to Him He does redeem and brings glory unto Himself through the healing and putting the pieces of brokenness back together. I know your heart longs for open hands and that you have such a spirit for your children to live and experience the wonders and beauty of this world. God will do it. In His way and in His time. I just want to assure you that no matter what comes your way in their lives and in the life of this baby inside of you that God can be trusted in each of them. I have prayed over 4 more babies since the death of Teagan and since Wyndham pulled through her medical concerns. With each pregnancy I felt God calling me to give them back to Him. All 4 babies have been born full-term and "perfect" and I know God has a special plan for each of my kids. {one more to go...}

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  34. I do not know how much time I have with them nor do I know what life holds for them. But I do know who holds them in His hands. And that makes all the difference for me! I know God loves to bless us. I just never knew He sometimes gives amazing blessings through pain, trials and by opening our hearts and eyes to things we never even thought of before. I am praying that God will give you such a comfort and peace and a strength to guide your children in the way He wants them to grow. I know He loves each of our children infinitely more than we do. Which is hard to imagine as moms who love their babies so much that it hurts at times. But He does. And He is Good. And faithful. And His ways are higher. And always have our hearts in mind as He works in and through us to bring glory unto Himself. I am praying for the His glory to shine through you and Chris and in the lives of each of your children as they grow and become who He created them to be. From before the creation of the world. May God's blessings and peace and mercy be on all of you for all the days He has given you. Thanks for sharing your heart. And thank you for letting me share mine. xo {Finally...end of this comment!} =)

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  35. Sooooo cute! Congrats love (:

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  36. So happy for you and your little miracle!!!

    :)

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  37. YAY!! I can understand your feelings of concern. We've had 2 miscarriages in the past year (our son will be 2 in April). I had NO concerns during my son's pregnancy, or #2. But after we lost #2, I was worried with #3. After having 2 miscarriages now, I am praying hard that God would really help us trust him the next time around and not to be afraid. Super hard to do, but for my sanity, I can't worry every step of the way.

    Best wishes for your pregnancy and hope you can really enjoy the rest of it! :)

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  38. This is sooo good to see. Baby's profile looks kinda peaceful in that picture :)

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  39. This is just the MOST BEAUTIFUL AND WONDERFUL news I could possibly hear today my friend!!! Praise the Lord!!!! So happy it all went well. Bless you!! x

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  40. oh praise God! I am so happy for you with tears in my eyes! you are right on casey, you are covered in love & prayers! :)

    yay! your baby is so cute!

    beelittlequeen.blogspot.com

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  41. I absolutely LOVE what your husband said to you. What a sweet thing to say at such a crucial time

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  42. Yay I'm so so happy for you! Another precious gift. : )

    Vonae Deyshawn
    www.myvirtueplace.com

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  43. I am so happy for you :) and the baby is so cute! Yey!

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  44. I am so happy for you! You deserve it :)

    And your baby is so cute already

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  45. Aww Casey, I'm so glad! I was worried when I didn't see you post yesterday =)
    SO excited for you =) What a blessing, and a super cute little peanut ;)
    Much Love girl!
    L

    allglorious-within.blogspot.com

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  46. Congratulations! This is so wonderful. I'll keep you and this little sweet baby in my prayers.

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  47. So happy for you all! I am in tears just reading your post. God is so good! Love!

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  48. There is nothing more beautiful or joyous! Congrats!

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  49. Best news ever <3 Love from me to you <3 xox

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  50. Best news ever <3 Love from me to you <3 xoxoxoxox

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  51. A hearty Congratulations to you all, Casey dear. God is GOOD~ xoxoxox

    Carol

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  52. So happy for you and your family :) Such a blessing!

    Hope you have a fabulous weekend!

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  53. So happy for the healthy baby!

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  54. Casey!!!! Praise God for this beautiful life! Yours and baby W's!!!!!!

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  55. So happy for your good news! Praise the Lord! I've been praying for you and that sweet little one and will continue to.

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  56. To God be the glory! I'm so happy for you.
    Blessings!
    Allison

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  57. Im so very excited for you and your family. I've experienced 3 miscarriages, I know your feeling of relief and joy that fills your heart and eyes when you first see and hear the moving baby on the monitor. lots of love to you all. xo.

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  58. Perfect!

    I am so glad it went well and the baby looks great!

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  59. ohhh i am so happy for you, casey!! baby looks very happy and healthy in there! :)

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  60. Love love love! Chris' words... so sweet! I am so happy for you. I can imagine how excited you were. Thanks for sharing your pictures. Can't wait to hear more. :)

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  61. Oh Casey O'm so happy for you!! Baby is already absolutely beautiful! xx

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  62. How very, very precious. May God continue to bless you and baby! :)

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  63. casey, i am definitly too young to have kids. so i don't know the feeling to lose a baby during prenancy, but i know how it is to lose a person you love. I lost my little twin sister 3 years ago and thinking of them is soooo horrible. Thinking about how it would be with them. Ahhh...

    i am sure that you and baby3 will rock it. you will make this. and you'll have an other perfect child.

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  64. Congratulations. That is really wonderful for you:) Enjoy every minute of it!!

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  65. so excited for you and that all is well! :) please know that i prayed for you...and continue to pray. i have been in your shoes so i completely understand your anxiety. i had two miscarriages...and now two beautiful, crazy, fun, silly little girls. can't wait to meet by littles someday! god is so good! :)

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  66. praise the Lord this baby is healthy! can't wait to meet him/her!!

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  67. I'm so happy for you Casey. Lots of love and blessings for the rest of your pregnancy. x

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  68. Yay! So excited for you! What a sweet little baby!

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  69. I am so glad everything is all well :) This post made me well up- I hope everything is fine and lovely from here on up :)

    Say x
    eighteenthofmay.blogspot.com

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  70. I'm SO happy for you!! Even though it's going to be a while, I can't WAIT to see the new baby already :)

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  71. How exciting, I honesty shines in your blog!

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  72. Oh man I feel for you having to go alone! But that little picture is so sweet!! Glad that everything is going well with bub. You are a strong woman. RElish every moment :D

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  73. Praise Jesus!!!!!! I have been praying for y'all and your little cozy nugget of pure love :) God is so wonderful!!! Cheers to the new life inside and the ones outside loving him/her already!

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  74. aren't sono pics the best?!?! soo so fun!! happy for you!!

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  75. Amazing beautiful gift from God! Your baby is on it's way! Thank you Lord for being the Lifter of Casey's head and heart! Blessings to you on this glorious moment!

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  76. I am so so so happy for you that everything is going well. I pray for you that it continues to and you have another beautiful healthy baby. I can't even imagine all the fears and worries of pregnancy, I pray that your faith helps alleviate those for you.

    Think of you often and send good vibes!

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  77. Congrats!!!!! =D

    100% its a girl!

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  78. Congrats!!!!! =D

    100% its a girl.

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  79. What a cute baby. And as long as the baby is happy and healthy, we can wait to find out the gender. Good for you to keep us in suspense. There are very few real surprises in this world.You have another cute, sweet baby. You guys only make the cutest ones ;)

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  80. I prayed for your lovely baby :). I'm so glad to hear everything! From the wild little personality moving around within you to the strong heartbeat to the tears to the doctor guessing the sex to your husband comforting you and loving you through the experience. I am so extremely blessed.
    I want you to know that your blog has been used by Christ to redefine how I viewed marriage, family and babies. The heart you have is contagious and truly God used your blog these last couple of years to just break down the lies of the enemy and show me what it is really about. I know your not perfect so don't feel weird reading all of this... but I really can't agree more with the heart the Lord has given you and I can't help but BELIEVE that He is so very, very pleased with you and your hubster. I am so blessed right now and overjoyed. GOd bless you lovely!

    ♥CheChe

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  81. What a blessed relief!! How exciting!!! :D

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  82. I know the feeling, leading up to and right before the sonogram. After 3 miscarriages I started writing verses I'd come across that gave me hope and I'd recite them over and over in the sitting room. Praying for my little one. I did it the whole pregnancy with my Bee girl. So excited for you all and the healthy little growing inside you!

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  83. So thrilled for you guys!!! And thankful you felt covered in love, prayer and support! Hope the pregnancy continues forward smoothly!

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  84. what wonderful news. i am so happy for your sweet family. xo

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  85. such wonderful news!!! so exciting! so happy for you and your family!... I didn't get to comment last post, but thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. I'm 6 six weeks (miscarried oct/nov). I feel so hopeful and joyful. Your strength and faith is a powerful reminder to trust in the Lord with all my heart. Everything will be ok because He is God of love and miracles and majesty. After reading your last post, I broke down in prayer (after a long time of being kind of out of touch). I felt a flood of peace that still remains within me. And I KNOW everything will be ok (even if it "goes wrong")....Thank you for touching my life. You are in our prayers :)

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  86. GOD IS SOOOOOOOO GOOD!!!!!!!!

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  87. Beautiful! I know that feeling all too well. And then they come out and you have that feeling for the rest of your life, I guess its called mom:)

    ~Heather

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  88. yay! i was thinking and praying for you :) praise the Lord, He is so faithful!

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  89. Praise God! Always a miracle :-)

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  90. Precious! Sounds like you have an awesome ultra-sound tech, too. Very happy for you. Praise God from whom all blessings flow! :)

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  91. prayers for you always. the baby is just perfect!
    xo TJ

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  92. Every time I see an ultrasound picture I am amazed that God created our bodies to continue creating! So cool :)

    I know how you feel about being anxious going to get a sonogram after a miscarriage. I was anxious every time I went to my monthly and weekly check ups with the doctor just waiting to hear that the baby was still in there and alive. What really got me through was just remembering that God is good, no matter what happens and he has me covered :)

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  93. What a beautiful baby! So happy for you and your family. :) Thank you for your inspirational blog. I stumbled upon it somehow and I am hooked! God Bless you all!

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  94. Oh...this brought back memories. You summed up my first ultrasound with my youngest. I lost two babies before him, so I was a wreck the day of Eli's ultrasound. Pregnancy after a miscarriage is a whole different ballgame. I am glad things are going so well for you. Congrats on this precious life!

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