hospital & update.

June 28, 2012



Well I have sort of debated on how much to share on this pregnancy. 
Mostly because I never want it to look like I am just seeking out attention. And I dont want it to seem like I am making a big ordeal out of everything that comes my way, ya know?? I had placenta issues at the beginning and then 2 weeks ago was admitted to the hospital... but up until now I just didn't feel like posting about what was happening, I just really really didn't want to make a big deal out of what all has been going on!

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But I lay here, the second time in the hospital in the past 2 weeks and decided to write a post with a bit of an update. If I'm going to be true to posting about my life and sharing what is really going on, then I should share with you all what has been happening with our little A.

Today I am being monitored and getting steroid shots for sweet little Apple. The shots will help her little lungs if she decides to come early. This is the first time I have received the steroid shots and feel really encouraged that we are getting these because Aiden & Ainsleigh were both born early with very underdeveloped lungs.

I have a history of having babies early and this sweet girl is following in those footsteps, trying to come. I came in at 9:00 this morning for my weekly sono and my cervix had shortened drastically from last week. In fact my doctor said it was extremely close to the # of just needing to be admitted to the hospital with the order to stay (for weeks on bedrest) until she comes.

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They told me today that I'll be on bedrest at home until next Friday and then we will see a fetal specialist again to see if we have made progress. Besides the obvious prayer of Apple's safety and continual growth...a huge prayer for me right now is that I am not admitted to the hospital to stay.

Eyes are welling up just thinking about it.


ahh.

Coming from someone who has trouble leaving her babies on a date night, I am feeling extremely anxious and panicky about the possibility of being away from them for weeks.


I  just might have a breakdown if I let my mind go there.


On top of that, the people who are supposed to watch our kiddos when we have Apple, can't watch the kiddos until August 4. 
And the last thing I want is to be worrying about aiden and ains with a sick baby in the NICU. 


So I am hitting my knees tonight, praying for some sort of miracle. 
Please no hospital stay and please baby girl stay put. 
Praying that all of this falls into place as it should.
 Or rather as I wish it would.


A few people have asked my actual due date- it's september 16 (ainsleighs birthday). 
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Today was emotional. I want so badly for everything to go smoothly and yet I find myself here again....we have walked this road twice before and this time it is all happening even sooner.
I would be completely lying if I didn't tell you I am just sobbing at this moment and am not even really sure why...just overcome with everything.
 I tried all day to be really positive and strong and "everything will be fine" but as the night comes and I am tired, I am getting really weepy.


 Just not knowing how this all will play out.


And then my sweet friend, Danielle, left me a message tonight where she prayed outloud on the answering machine and it just triggered a complete waterfall...it was like everything I was holding in just came pouring out like a flood. I am so grateful that I have so many people in my life who show me, tangibly, the love of Jesus. I got sweet texts and messages all day and her prayer just sent me straight over the edge.

Chris works from home so he can help tremendously BUT if I was admitted to the hospital it would be extremely hard for him to get everything he needs to get done with his business while also watching the kiddos...so I humbly ask for your prayers over the next few weeks.
I will be 29 weeks on Sunday. 

Thank you so so very much from the bottom of my heart for the prayers and for loving us well. xoxo
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185 comments:

  1. Oh, mama. Praying earnestly and with all of my heart for you tonight and for the rest of your pregnancy. Hugs and love, sweet friend. <3 GOD'S GOT THIS!

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  2. praying for you and baby

    mama to 9. 12 and under.

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  3. Oh hon, I am in tears with you - I can feel your emotion so strongly right now - I don't even personally know you but I wish I could be there with you and help you in some way. All I can offer is prayers - and virtual hugs. Praying that baby girl stays where she is snug - praying that God sees fit to let you ride this pregnancy out at home with your other sweeties. Praying that God gives you peace right now. Hugs~~

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  4. Covering you and Apple in prayers!

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  5. Covering you and Apple in prayer.

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  6. No, no, no missy - you will not be hitting your knees in prayer tonight WE will be! You need to stay right there, in that bed, laying down, talking to Apple reminding her how cool it is inside mommy's tummy right now. Oh sweet Casey - your strength and wisdom are so inspiring. You will be HEAVILY in my thoughts and prayers for these next few days, weeks and months. Lots of strength, smiles and prayers sent your way.
    God bless!

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  7. Lots of prayers for you, sweet baby Apple, and the rest of your beautiful family.

    He is in control. Always.

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  8. Praying for you sweet lady and little Apple and the rest of your family. God totally has His hand on this. It's hard, I can't even imagine really... but even though its hard, He is there! I know you know this. Lifting you up!

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  9. Casey my dear! I am praying for you!

    LORD GOD I thank you for Casey and the life within her! I pray that You will protect Apple's little body, give her strength to grow and progress. Lord, please be with Casey's doctors and give them wisdom and discernment regarding Casey's and Apple's health. I pray that You will give Casey peace that only You can give, that You will help her trust you and rest in Your presence and YOUR grace. Thank you that YOU are forming Apple in Casey's womb, and that you are with them. You are great, and holy, and Lord we worship You now through our trust in Your sovereignty and will.

    Love you Casey!

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  10. Prayers for you & your sweet family, Casey! We serve a big God. Praying you feel His peace tonight.

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  11. oh girl I am on my knees, praying for you and your sweet girl. Praying for her to stay put for as long as possible. I had steroid shots with Lincoln and they seemed to work really well (born at 31 weeks and he never needed assistance breathing.....so I'd say they did their job!) I know how hard it is to have a baby prematurely and I pray you won't have to experience that this time. Praying also for your heart as you journey this road.

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  12. Hey hun!!

    Totally know where you're coming from. I had no cervix at 21 weeks and spent 11 weeks in bed - some at home and some in hospital - and G was born at 32 weeks.

    Thank goodness for great doctors and medicine - I strongly believe in steroid shots.

    I'm praying for you all. God has his hand on you and the situation. He's work will be done.

    blessings Girl.

    Jac

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  13. We are all hurting for you, Dear. Nobody wants to be away from their babies for that long. Prayers that everything goes according to God's plan and that Apple will be an incredibly healthy miracle baby. If only Minnesota were closer, I'd be there. Luckily, Jesus is closer and I'll all be praying for Him to take care of you, your hubs, and especially ALL of your little ones. Love you!

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  14. I'll be praying for you.
    How scary. I'm so glad that you have faith. You are so strong.

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  15. Oh honey! I'm so sorry you're having to go through that! I'm praying that your baby girl will stay in there a little longer... Everything will be ok :-)

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  16. Many, many prayers for you, your family, and sweet Apple tonight and in the upcoming weeks! I know it's difficult choosing how much to reveal in your blog, but thank you for sharing this update (and your life!) with us =)

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  17. Please let me know if I can do anything for you all

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  18. Read you blog stats to her. Tell her every one of those readers is ordering her to stay in and grow!

    Prayers all around!

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  19. Please let me know if I can do anything for you all

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  20. Praying for you long and hard friend. If you EVER need anything feel free to reach out to me, I'm here for you. Thinking about you and your sweet, beautiful family and I know everything is going to be just fine! You take care of yourself first and foremost. XOXO

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  21. Praying for you sweet momma. rest in Him xoxoxox

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  22. Casey, my heart and prayers go out to you and your family tonight. Remember, He has held the oceans in His hands; surely He is also holding you and little Apple in His hands. Stay strong in this rough time, it will all be worth it in the end.

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  23. Praying over you and Apple this afternoon and this evening. Asking that God will fill you with His perfect peace and that your little one waits awhile longer before being welcomed to this world. :) We know that in Jesus all things hold together.

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  24. Praying for you and your family and for little Apple to stay in that belly for a little while longer :)

    Love reading your posts. They always brighten my day and sometimes make me cry (because reading about your faith is uplifting. Loving Him is just the BEST).

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  25. Praying for you sweet Apple, Casey. There is such amazing power in prayer. Believe and hold on to the fact that there are many who are doing just that.

    LOVE you so much.

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  26. Sweet friend! Praying. . . praying for peace and for Apple to stay put and for NO hospital! :-) Love you!

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  27. you, apple, and the rest of your sweet family are in my prayers.

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  28. I am so glad you shared Casey! I am really praying for you and sweet baby Apple, and that everything goes okay. The power of sharing is the support and prayers you'll receive, and that can do a lot!
    Please keep us updated!

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  29. Praying for you and sweet Apple. There is such amazing power in prayer--- believe and hold on to the knowledge that there are many people doing just that.

    LOVE you SO much,

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  30. Prayers for you and your sweet family.

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  31. Oh Casey..sending prayers your way girl!
    Ashley:)

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  32. I will pray for you and Apple and your family. Try not to worry about your little ones. That part will work out, you will see. Friends will come out of the woodwork to help you with them. If I was closer I would. Little Apple needs to stay put for a little while. If you are at home you will tend to do more than you should and then you will be feeling guilty for not doing more. Can you tell that I have been where you are.....but not with a baby on board. Good luck. Lots of prayers and good vibes coming your way. You and your hubby look so sad. ((((((HUGS)))))

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  33. I don't know if I've ever commented before, but I want you to know I believe in the power of prayer and I'm intervening for you and sweet Apple. God is faithful. Please try not to worry. Big hugs to you and the family.

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  34. Sending prayers to you and your family! You are such a strong woman! Baby Apple is going to be lucky to have you guys as her parents.

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  35. Prayers for you and your sweet Apple.

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  36. So sorry Casey! I know that must be so hard. I'm thankful you know Jesus and trust him in all things. I pray that you will abide in him and be able to rest there. He loves you and your family and cares for your baby deeply. He weeps when we weep. "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble." Psalm 46:1

    Hang in there! I'll be praying.
    liza

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  37. You're an extremely strong person and mom... we will keep your family in our prayers

    xo Jessica

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  38. I know we've never met, but I honestly love you. You will be in my prayers, and I know the Lord will take care of you and your family.

    Thank you for your example, and for making the world, and bloggy world, a better place.

    xoxo

    Chin up pretty lady!

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  39. Awww girl....so wanting to give you a hug. The Lord is good. He has a plan in all this!!
    I am praying for you girl!!
    So wish we lived closer cause I would totally be happy to watch your kiddos so you wouldn't have to worry. And make dinners and other things that need doing.
    Lifting you up to our Lord girl!! =)

    Much Love
    L

    allglorious-within.blogspot.com

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  40. Stay strong mama.

    You are such a beautiful encouragement to so many girls out there-- hopefully you can receive some of that back during this stressful time. your baby.your life.your family-- all in God's perfect plan, sweets.

    Keeping you in prayer tonight. Lots of love,
    Krista

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  41. Oh sweet girl, stay strong. I know this must be so hard. God is in control, just trust him. I will pray for you tonight and tomorrow and as many days as I need to. Sending all my love from NC.
    xoxo

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  42. Sobbing with you dear Casey! I was admitted to the hospital recently because of issues with my gall bladder and the worst part was having them tell me my daughter had to go home and be apart from me. I can't even imagine what you're going through. That was 4 of the roughest days for me because I just wanted to have my daughter in my arms.

    Praying for you and your family sweet Casey! Wish I lived closer. I would totally watch your kiddos for you if I could.

    On my knees for your family.
    Praying Romans 8:28-30 over you all. 28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.

    Every thing we go through, although not necessarily good, will be worked for good, to bring Him glory.

    May your light shine during this difficult time so that the staff at the hospital may see your light and glorify your Father in Heaven.
    Continue to be that light that you always are!

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  43. Casey.. I am praying...

    Blessings all over you.... In Jesus Name I declare wellness..... for both baby and you. Safety for your children, Peace over your finances and your comings and goings..... I say to the enemy Flee..in Jesus Name!


    I am broken with you,,, but trusting in God that He has this... and he has your sweet family in his hands. xo

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  44. Praying for you and Baby Apple. You are so strong and brave but sometimes it's okay to be, not okay. Tears are not a bad thing. You are in my thoughts sweet Casey....xoxo

    lauren

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  45. Oh sweet girl. God is watching over. He knows when this child of His will come and she will come covered in His grace. Casey, she already belongs to Him. And she is already yours. You are keeping her close to your heart until He says its time. Until then we hit our knees in prayer, right?

    When labor threatened my 2nd pregnancy after a fender bender, my sweet 28 week old boy and I grew with the Lord. I prayed (from the bed) day in and out for each individual muscle and organ in his body. It helped me. I felt like I was covering him... But God had the rest.

    I will pray for your family. Keep the faith, sweetheart!!! HE IS MIGHTY.

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  46. Prayers for you sweet Mama and sweet little Apple!

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  47. I love to read your blog and so I am simply one of your dedicated readers sending you and your baby much love and all my prayers go with you at this difficult time. Everything will be OK, keep strong and it is all right to cry it out when you need to.

    xx

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  48. Prayers your way for your sweet baby Apple & your adorable family.
    -Jennifer

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  49. Praying that this baby will miraculously stay put even longer than your other babies, w/o a hospital stay!!! Peace to you and your family!

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  50. Oh friend. Prayers for you, your family and sweet baby Apple. God is there. She will come when she is supposed to. Take a deep breath, close those beautiful eyes of yours, and remember HE is with you ALWAYS! :)

    XO~Amanda

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  51. anyone who actually reads your blog should know you and your heart enough to know youre not an attention seeker. and posting this update is a good thing...because now you have many prayer warriors (myself included) who are covering you and Apple and your family in prayer! much love to you girl! take care, get your bed rest and know we love you!! :)
    ~Maria-Isabel

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  52. i get all emotional at the thought of all these praying people! prayer brings God's love so close. i pray that with the prayers of your friends and readers you feel God take two big arms and wrap you up in one tight hug and hold you there through the rest of your pregnancy.

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  53. I can't even imagine... I never leave my kiddos, either, and I had a huge breakdown when my daughter was born and my son had to go home without me. My heart hurts for you and I will be praying for you and your sweet family. Try to rest and trust in God.

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  54. Jesus, please cover this sweet family with your love and protection.

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  55. I'm so glad you shared where you're really at. Prayers are coming your way. I'm a new momma who loves her bebe so much that I also struggle to leave him with someone else. I've felt weird for that, but your sweet heart reminds me that it is okay to love our babies to bits. Which makes me know how hard this must be for you. Hang in there, sister!

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  56. Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family right now. I have 3 kids by birth that all decided to make an early entrance into the world. With my last baby I went into preterm labor at 22 weeks. It was terrifying and I felt lost. I made it to 36 weeks by the Grace of God. It was the longest 14 weeks of my life. I will be praying hard for you and sweet Apple.

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  57. praying for you, sweet baby apple, your whole little family. "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."" Jeremiah 29:11

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  58. Thoughts, prayers, and love are with you, Apple, and the rest of your family. xx

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  59. praying for you and sweet baby apple! i hope she stays put for a while... but you take it easy, mama! try not to stress... i know that's easier said than done, but know that we are all praying for you!!

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  60. My prayers are with you sweet Casey! My heart goes out to you as I had preterm labor at 25 weeks with my last baby and it was terrifying. Sending you and your family tons and tons of good wishes and prayers!!!

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  61. Hi sweet mama, we don't know each other but I know your heart as a mama, I'm a mama too :) I am praying for the Lord's mighty hand to move in your womb, touching Apple's body with His protection and growth. Praying for your heart to be overwhelmed in His unfailing peace and comfort. blessings!! xoxo

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  62. Praying for you!! It'll all work out!!

    xx.

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  63. Angels and Prayers Casey and Chris . . . Love and Light too. Tuck yourself under mama's heart sweetest baby Apple and let her heartbeat soothe you sweetest one . . .
    Much love ~ Lauren Ayers

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  64. You and your dear family are in my prayers

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  65. You and your dear family re in my prayers.

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  66. i lost a baby right after you lost addison and have been following your pregnancy with apple a little vicariously, i must admit. praying for you and your rainbow baby.

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  67. definitely be praying for you and your little girl. <3
    Hang in there!

    xoxo,
    Rachel Nicole @ Summer Breeze

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  68. Case.praying.praying as are many others. there is true power in prayer and remember our God is Bigger than this.
    love you.
    don't try to be strong let God be the strength and you just rest in the comfort of knowing He's got you. He's got Apple. He's got Chris and He most certainly will take care of A & A.
    love you sweet friend.

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  69. casey, i am praying for the protection you and your sweet baby... God created children to be a blessing and in no way to bring us heartache like this...even the scare of coming early, etc... his promises are true... love you girl. i have been there. many struggles with having kids... but i know my God is faithful..

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  70. I will definitely be praying for you and your little girl. <3
    Hang in there!

    xoxo,
    Rachel Nicole @ Summer Breeze

    http://rachyracheshobbycorner.blogspot.com/

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  71. Oh Casey. I am so sorry dear. I am praying for you, little apple, and your lovely family. I truly believe that everything will be alright and if you ever need to talk (or e-mail) you know this gal always has your back! xox.

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  72. Times like these are so stressful. But you serve a God who is so much bigger than all this! He knows when that sweet girl is going to come out and how much you can handle.
    From what you said about your awesome friends, i can ASSURE you that your children will survie someone else watching them and will most likely have the time of their little lives with someone "new" hanging out with them and playing. So don't worry about those small things.

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  73. I just came across this post and wanted to share that I am 27 weeks pregnant was put on bed rest three weeks ago for the same reason as you. My cervix lengthened right back up with a bit of rest so hopefully that offers you some encouragement! My 1 1/2 year old was born at 35 weeks with a 10 day NICU stay-I had a steroid shot with him and I think it helped tremendously with his lung development! Sending prayers your way-hang in there!

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  74. just hate this so so much. praying for your sweet family and sweet angels!

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  75. The power of prayers! Im sending one your way for you and baby Apple.

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  76. oh sweetie, i am praying. you are such a wonderful mama and i am asking the Lord to give you peace and comfort tonight. praying Zepheniah 3:17 for your family - may the Lord quiet you with His love and rejoice over you with His singing.

    love xo

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  77. Praying for you. And when you feel weak, know that that is when we are praying the most to lift you up.

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  78. I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through with your sweet baby A. I am going to pray for your on my blog and send everyone here to pray for you as well if that's ok.
    Blessings sweet mama.

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  79. Casey,
    You are such a tender heart anyway, and motherhood only (and it's okay that it does) multiplies that a million times over, doesn't it? I can relate. A good friend had her Calla Jayne baby at 26 weeks and Calla is thriving as a healthy 2 year old today. Their family was also laced with prayer and the Lord has used their story in crazy awesome ways for the kingdom. I admire your strength, your faith, your vulnerability to share such a painful/private thing, and myriad other things about you. You are constantly on my heart anyway, but even moreso now. Those thoughts shall turn into prayers and I already thank Jesus for bathing you, baby Apple, and all your family in his healing blood. Blood that is capable of SO, SO MUCH. All for his glory, Sister.

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  80. I'm praying for you! That is hard and scary! So glad the Lird has protected little Apple so far, and I'm praying for continued blessing and protection! Thank you for the update!!

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  81. Oh.
    I am praying Isaiah 44:24 over you all and I hope it brings you peace knowing that the same God who knows little Apple in her place under your heart also stretched out the whole heavens and earth.


    Thus says the Lord, your Redeemer,
    And He who formed you from the womb:
    “I am the Lord, who makes all things, Who stretches out the heavens all alone, Who spreads abroad the earth by Myself. Isaiah 44:24

    Michele
    Sentimental Heart Photo
    Sentimental Heart Vintage

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  82. Casey: with every once of faith that I have I am praying for you and all your babies. My thoughts and love are with you and little A in your belly. You are a strong example of living a faithful life. Thank you for sharing this incredibly hard time in your life.
    XOXO
    Megan

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  83. oh Casey i am sending up prayers for you right now and will keep you in my prayers.

    lean on Christ and he will guide your every step. jeremiah 29:11-13

    love you!

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  84. Dear Lord be with this family and their concerns. We lay our worries at your feet and know that your ever presence will calm and care for them. We trust you and know that your healing touch will wrap around them in this time of need. We pray these things in your name. Amen.

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  85. Definitely praying for you and Baby A!! Thank you so much for sharing this post with us because I know its hard to really write about something this close to you and happening right this moment.

    You and your family have prayers headed your way from so many people.

    God Bless
    -kodi

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  86. Casey, I hope my years will take your anxiety and also Tera away from you! I will pray for you tonight. That this baby stays inside for as much as possible and that God gives you the power to relax and that He takes all that anxiety away! You are such a great mommy! I love your posts! Read the all! Be strong, lil Apple will come later rather than sooner and be healthy and strong little woman just like her mom! Stay strong! It's all in his hands...

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  87. My thoughts and prayers go out to you, your family, and Apple. May you find peace in God's love and patience for what He has in store for you all.

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  88. Praying for you, sweet one. Rest in the shadow of His wings. <3

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  89. Hi Sweet Mama,

    Your lovely family will be in our prayers ❤ You and baby Apple stay strong and hang in there!

    Love & Blessings,

    Carris

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  90. Praying for you and your sweet family. Lord, please protect Apple and Casey, and bring Your peace and comfort to their entire family! Blessings to you, my husband and I are praying for you!

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  91. You and your family will definitely be in my prayers! No matter what Heavenly Fathers plan is for you and your daughter,I pray that you will have the strength and peace to get through these next couple months. Much love:)

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  92. You and your family will be in our thoughts and prayers! Isaiah 41:10  fear not, for I am with you;  be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you,  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

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  93. Casey, praying for you and that precious baby and your sweet family ♥

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  94. Praying and praying for you, Mama. I hope everything works out. Life may be hard, but God is good. It's good to let it out. Just cry and cry. He will heal your aching heart and will take care of your little ones. He knows every hair on their heads and yours. He knows you through and through.

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  95. i'm not sure if you remember me; but i emailed you a while back about your NICU story and how much it hit home for me.
    i hope little A manages to stay put for a while longer - but just remember, every single day helps at this stage! every day she stays in is a couple of days taken off your NICU stay. and have hope that there is the possibility that she will stay there for another couple of weeks (atleast!) - my little boy stayed put for 3 weeks after his dose of steriod shots, and that was after me going into labour&waters breaking! so it's possible. it's really great that you got the shots; i think they helped HUGELY.

    my thoughts are with you, take care & rest as much as you can. x

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  96. sending many hugs and prayers your way!

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  97. Thank you so much for sharing, so we can pray for you and keep you in our thoughts.
    I don't know if this will help you (perhaps to get some hope): In my first pregnancy my cervix shortened in the very very extreme in the 27th week . It was a horrible time, but my son was born at 41 weeks, what nobody ever believed would be possible.
    I also wanted to tell you, that my mum had to stay in hospital for four months during her second pregnancy. I lived at my aunts house and I have really nice memories about this: My mom once told me, that they did everything to keep my routine as exact as possible and for her it was pure torture to leave me, but I enjoyed beeing cared for by a strong network of family and friends (I hope I Wrote this all right and you get the message behind this story - english is not my mother tongue and it's hard to write my thoughts in another language).
    Praying for you in Germany!Melanie

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  98. You are in our prayers. Miracles happen when people pull together and put their faith in something as one. I hope little Apple's lungs can develop well and that you can get some rest from all your troubles and worries.

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  99. Praying for you and your baby Apple!I hope you are able to rest and find peace knowing that God has you in His loving care. God Bless!!!

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  100. Prayers for you and your sweet family! Your babies just can't wait for their sweet momma to hold them!!! :-) Prayers are so strong, I hope you will feel their comfort soon!

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  101. Thinking of you and praying for you Casey x x x

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  102. My thoughts are with you. Take Care.

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  103. Praying for you sweet girl. This must be so hard for you Casey. It has been such a mixture of joy, fear, happiness, worry.....I'm praying miss apple decides to hibernate for a while longer and just stay put. I hope you & Chris will be ok in the coming months. We are all thinking of you :)

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  104. please please please sweet baby apple stay safe in your mummas belly.. thinking of you casey xxxx

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  105. Thinking and praying for you, your darling little Apple and your family. Mark 10:27 "For with God, all things are possible" ♥ He is walking along side you in this stressful time and he will bring you strength and comfort xx

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  106. Thinking and praying for you, your darling little Apple and your family. Mark 10:27 "For with God, all things are possible" ♥ He is walking along side you in this stressful time and he will bring you strength and comfort xx

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  107. Hang in there ... so sorry this is happening but know the Lord has a hand in little apples life. He hears your heart and knows your desires.

    That being said you've encouraged me to share more abt our pregnancy on my blog. I havent so far... because i didnt want people to worry for us or baby. He was found to have a 2 vessel cord tho and is now being closely monitored for heart and kidney defects. He seems fine as of now but its just weighing on me.

    I had preterm labor at 29 weeks with my 3rd too, so now at 24 weeks thats on my mind too, wondering if that may happen as well. The different now is my husband just started a new job, he cant take off ANY time, we have no family nearby... so if I were put on restricted activity this time around, id be alone with 3 other kids to deal with, by myself... im not sure how that work.

    Anxiety is killer in pregnancy isnt it!?

    praying lil apple stays put til at least 36 weeks!
    and you keep those feet up, as hard as that may be.

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  108. Miss Casey....Praying for you and that sweet baby you carry! Wish I was close to you so I could care for your other little ones and take all the worry away so you could focus on rest and nothing else. I know our Lord will supply all that you need.

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  109. Praying for you all, crossing fingers and toes and will do whatever else to keep you and your baby safe..
    Hugs
    Emma

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  110. Sweet Casey. Sending you love and many prayers. Stay strong and trust.

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  111. praying for you all, and definitely baby Apple! stay put, little girl!!

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  112. :(
    So sorry to read this. Keep your head up, and remember, this too shall pass. Praying for you, and for Apple, and all of your sweet little family!

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  113. Praying so diligently for you both. "When we hit our knees that's when God stands up for us."

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  114. Casey please keep us as updated as you can. Praying that little Apple will stay baking for many more weeks and continue to grow. Cheers!

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  115. All my thoughts and well wishes are with you my love. I know you are the last person that needs to be told this but God is watching over you and Apple and he will deliver her safely. Just put everything into His hands as you always have and He will protect both of you. Thinking and praying for you!

    peacelovedecor.com

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  116. Praying for you and your sweet family!

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  117. In Jesus name you will deliver a healthy baby at the perfect time! stay positive and know God is in control. God bless you and your beautiful family.

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  118. Praying hard for you and your sweet family! "When you're in deep water, trust the one who walked on it." He is with you!

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  119. Praying for you and your family and little Apple. Please update as you feel you can and know that you have SO much support. Blessings to you and your family.

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  120. "When life gives you all that you can stand, KNEEL."

    Sending my thoughts, hugs, and prayers to you and sweet baby Apple. Praying that she will stay nice and cozy in your belly for as long as she can, that her little parts will be healthy and fully developed when she makes her grand entrance into the world, and that you get the rest your body needs! Smile through the trials – God's got you both in His hands :)

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  121. praying for you and baby apple during this stressful time! don't worry about what other people think of you - what you choose to "record" on your blog is up to you!

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  122. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Hold tight baby Apple, you have the rest of your life to be in your mama's arms but those few precious months remaining are so important to stay toasty warm in her belly. Thinking of you!

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  123. I pray that you are able to go home, that Apple can stay in the oven a little longer and that everything works out and is okay for you and your sweet family. I know how hard it would be for you to be separated from your babies and I really hope it doesn't come to that!

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  124. I will e praying that Apple is on time, if not a few days alate, and is very healthy :)

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  125. PRAYING SPECIFICALLY FOR EVERY REQUEST LISTED!!!!!

    God is Good Casey! He's got this!!!

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  126. I've been following your blog for some time, but I'm not sure I've ever commented.

    I just wanted to let you know that you and your family will be in my prayers.

    Hang on lil' Apple! :)

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  127. Hang in there :-/ Sending you lots of positive thoughts and prayers

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  128. I've never commented before, but I just have to say STAY POSITIVE. You have a whole web community out here praying for you and your child and family.

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  129. My sweet friend..just seeing all the comments shows me how many people love you and are lifting you up in prayer right now. The enemy knows our weakness and he goes for it everytime..So I just stand at the gap with everyone else right now lifitng you up to our precious lord Jesus and I ask for comfort and peace for you and your family. I plead the blood of Jesus over you Casey and your family and I ask that the Lord will stand in authority over you blocking every attack of the enemy. I pray that the Lord will meet you in all your needs at this time, and may you have the peace that suprasses all understanding to comfort you. May the Lord Jesus hold you and keep you and your family. Love you sweet friend XoXo

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  130. This post moved me deeply, and brought me to tears. I feel my knees heavily pulling toward the ground, to pray for you, your family, and for baby Apple. God will never give us what we cannot handle, although it may seem like He is pushing it!

    I don't really have any encouraging words, just prayers. Love.

    alyssa

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  131. This post brought me to tears...having never met you! My baby boy is due September 15th. We will be praying for peace for you and health for Apple!

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  132. Praying for you and your sweet babe! I pray for you to have peace in this stressful and scary situation and for you to feel all these prayers lifting you up. ((hugs))

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  133. Saying our prayers for you, little Apple and the rest of your beautiful family! God has a plan, Sweets!! Xoxo

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  134. Oh, NICU babies break my heart more than anything. I pray for your little one to stay in long enough to be born healthy. That is the most important thing. xo

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  135. Yay for the 30 week milestone and hooray for Betamethasone! I'm a NICU nurse and it really does make a difference.

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  136. I am hesitant to comment because of all of the beautiful comments you have already received. But my heart is compelled to reach out to you. I have been in the exact situation you are in. When I was 24 weeks pregnant (with my sweet son who is now a healthy 12 week old) I unexpectedly found out that my cervix had shortened to a dangerous length and was immediately sent to the hospital and admitted for monitoring and steroid shots. Thankfully, after a few days I was able to be discharged, but I did have to remain on bed rest for the duration of the pregnancy. Each week became a testimony of God's faithfulness and goodness. I was able to carry my son to full term and deliver him at 39.5 weeks. With the help of many prayer warriors, I believe that you will experience the same grace. I really feel the Lord declaring a profound testimony over Apple's life. I see Him waving a banner of Love over her and that love is what will protect her. She truly is the Apple of His eye and I feel that God has given you previous revelations about the impact of her name. Hold fast to those words. What He has spoken to you remains true. He will protect her life. He has a hope and a future for her and plans for her to prosper. I am praying, sincerely. If you have any questions or need someone to talk to that has been in your shoes, I am here. rcgrace619@gmail.com. Love and peace to you, Rebecca

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  137. you are not seeking attention at all.

    you are in my thoughts and i hope it all works out.

    and little apple stay where you are--the big wide world is totally overrated :)

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  138. stay strong! you can make it a few more weeks and that's all she needs. try to turn you brain off with all the "what ifs" and focus on getting better.

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  139. Praying for you...

    I spent 72 days on bedrest with my first baby...I know EXACTLY how you are feeling.

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  140. My heart aches for you. Tears flood my eyes to think of all you're going through right now. Prayers going up. I hope you find peace in knowing you have so many positive thoughts being sent your way:)

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  141. Hi sweet Casey - i do understand taht you didn't want to open up about this pregnancy and now I am glad you did!

    The power of prayer is amazing and I for one am honored to pray for you!

    I pray your heart's desire be met by the Lord - Thank you Lord for covering Casey, baby Apple and her family with your grace and mercy! Watch over them Lord and may your perfect will be done!

    Blessing you today - standing in faith that ALL will be well!

    xoTiffany

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  142. Praying for the health of you and baby and that things will fall into place for you guys no matter what happens! Thank you for sharing this with us!

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  143. Sending you and your nothing but good things.

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  144. Read Psalm 143 as a form of prayer. I've been loving it lately!

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  145. Oh my gosh, Casey. I am thinking of you, Apple and your family.

    :(

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  146. its your blog and you should share whatever you feel you need to share!!! life isnt always perfect days like lots of blogs put out there, its real life! i know there are haters!!! (please PLEASE go read lilblueboo.blogspot.com, she just posted today about her hater mail, it just may give u a good laugh). i have lost a baby, 4 weeks early, she lived for 21 days, so i know exactly the kind of anxiety that you are going thru. i was terrified to go thru it again so i had a tubal. just try to keep your head up, rest, and pray! you have plenty of us readers who love your little family and want only the best! you will be in my thoughts and prayers!!

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  147. Praying for you and your family Casey! Hang in there, it'll all be ok!!

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  148. Casey,
    I am praying for you and your family right now! Remember "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."
    1 Peter 5:6-8

    Love your Sister in Christ,
    Jessica

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  149. Prayers being sent up for you & baby Apple. Our son was born at 31wks and we lost our daughter who was born at 23wks so I know how stressful and upsetting a premature birth & NICU can be and the emotional toll on everyone. Holding you all in prayer for strength and that sweet little Apple slows down and realizes how great she's got it right now. Lots of love, hope for strength when you need it most and that you feel the peace of being lifted up in prayer by many ((hugs))

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  150. Nothing is harder than being apart from your babies and worrying about the one in your womb! I am praying so earnestly for you--for peace and for grace, strength and comfort. And for Apple-that God is holding her in the palm of His hand and will not allow her to be born until it is the right time.

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  151. Praying so much for you and sweet little Apple.
    I just read these two scriptures and wanted to share them with you...

    Hebrews 6:19-20a
    "We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtains, where Jesus, who went before us, has entered on our behalf. "

    Hebrews 7:26
    "Such a high priest meets our need--one who is holy, blameless, pure, set apart from sinners, exalted above the heavens."

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  152. Jesus, fill Casey with so much peace in her heart so she will be confident in your perfect plan and love.


    xo

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  153. Dear Casey, I will be praying for you and little Apple hoping that she stays put. All though I dont know you personally you have helped me emmensly with finding myself and beginning to pray,so you and your family will be in my prays. Stay strong..Hugs and kisses, Maria..xx

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  154. praying. we love you guys so much!

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  155. Thinking of you!!!!!!! This is your blog. you allowed to share or withhold whatever you like.

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  156. Praying for you and little A, Casey! Glad to hear that you have a wonderful support group of friends to lean on.

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  157. Huge, huge prayers and hugs. You don't have to share your entire journey through this world with us, ya know? But I know that by doing so you have reached and encouraged many a young mother and that we in return are reaching out and encouraging you and baby Apple tonight.

    xo,
    Nicole

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  158. Praying for you that baby Apple remains as snug as a bug. Your family is beautiful BTW!

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  159. Oh Casey! Praying for you and your sweet family.

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  160. Said a prayer for you and for Baby Apple last night and you were both on my mind first thing this morning as well. Prayers from KY!

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  161. Sending baby-stay-put vibes for you and your little one!
    Keep your chin up momma, sounds like you an amazing support group!
    XOXO
    *Jazzmine*

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  162. You and your family are in my thoughts <3

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  163. Praying for you & the safe arrival of baby Apple. xo

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  164. prayers for you and your family sweet, Casey. You are brave, strong, faithful and blessed. xo

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  165. Casey,
    My son was due September 25th 2010, we had him August 2, 2010. he was 2 lbs 7 oz. He was underweight for being 8 weeks early. It was an emergency c-section that we just "happened" to want another u/s to double check the sex of the baby. If we wouldn't have gone in for the u/s then they are sure I would have lost our little boy by my appointment that was 4 days later. God was truly holding our hands during that time. I know how you feel and praying that your little lady stays in as long as possible. He spent 30 days in the NICU and we brought him home weighing 3 lbs 14 oz he is now a little ball of energy at almost 23 months. God has both of you in his hands. Lots of hugs and prayers!
    Kimberly
    (more of Cohen's Story at www.oikoshandmade.com)

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  166. Oh Case! I'm sorry I'm just getting to this, but know prayers are being sent up for you and your sweet family. You've got this Momma, or should I say He does. Hugs and love to you!

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  167. i love you girl. continuing to lift to you and your family up to HIm! i pray that you and Chris will ultimately use this time to show others Christ and your hope and trust in Him. i know that you will walk worthy. love you.

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  168. Praying for you beautiful lady! I had cervical incompetence with my rainbow baby (now a wonderful 16 yo.son). I had a cerclage at 19 weeks and spent the next 16 weeks on bedrest. I would have done anything to have my son~even move mountains! I have a good feeling for you Casey!!

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  169. My baby boy was born at 31 weeks, in the NICU for 6.5 weeks. It was so hard but he's perfect and I wouldn't change a thing. You will get through this and your family will be stronger because of it. Knowing that you won't go home again before baby is born is the WORST, but it's so important for you to relax and hope baby cooks just a little longer.

    I know I'm just one more of the hundreds of preemie stories, but I know every story made me a little stronger when I was in your shoes. Hang in there! Our thoughts are with you and Apple.

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  170. Sending thoughts and prayers your way!! I know a little of what you are feeling. I was about 30 weeks when I was admitted to a hospital an hour away and I stayed there until my son was born at 35 weeks. I know it is tough and hard to even imagine being away from home and on bedrest but sometimes it is best. I will be keeping you in my prayers and hoping for the very best.

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  171. You and your sweet family are in my prayers. I hope only good things come to you and I really hope that everything runs smoothly for you and baby A.

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  172. I had Placenta Previa with my first, and was on bed rest 2 months at home and 1 month in the hospital, and had 3 steroid shots since my girl was coming a month early. Definitely praying you don't have to do the same. The woman in the room next to me had it to, but had a child already- I know she wanted to be with him for more than the few sleep overs they had at the hospital. I can't imagine being away from my child, praying you don't have to.

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  173. I am praying for you, your little baby girl and your lovely family! Everything is gonna be ok! <3

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  174. I am a little late in commenting but I truly hope that everything works out for you and little A. I will be thinking about your during this time. Your post brought me to tears, along with everyone else.

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  175. My prayers are with you and your family. May little Apple find comfort in her womb until September!
    xx
    ~Yesenia

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  176. I'm catching up on reading after being gone for a while, so I just saw this. Tears were brought to my eyes as I read of your struggles. But, my prayers are with you, daily, pleading with God to keep both of you safe. I do hope that those shots help sweet Apple and that she stays in there longer than the other A's did. Hugs to you sweet lady, hope bed rest is going well...

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  177. hi!i know i am late,i am a few weeks behind in my e-mails.i want you to know you are in my prayers & don't worry about what to share,everyone here who reads your post wants to know that baby apple is doing good.even more since your last pregnecy.we want to know she is healthy & a fighter.please don't keep us in the dark.i don't have a blog,i have health issues that have caused me to be on disabilty.i read your blog to 4-get myself for a little while.i can no longer read a book but blogs like your's are more like a letter.much easier to read then a book.i am not much older then you.so thank you for shareing & letting us into your life.i pray that apple is a healthy happy baby.i pray you get thru this time as you draw closer to apples birth.that not only apple makes it thru healthy but you too are healthy.thank you again

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