rainbows and gratitude.

July 15, 2012

I have had a few strange days in a row. 
Friday I got a "not so good" report at my sono. 
I am going in Tuesday for a follow up sonogram to see if my numbers were possibly wrong on Friday. *sigh*

Then Saturday I had my grandmother's funeral. 
And it was really sad. 
After the funeral, as the afternoon & evening progressed, I started to notice Aiden not feeling well...which turned into a 104 fever, chills & throwing up. 

In the midst of the chaos Saturday I also received some news that wasn't fabulous.... all this to say, we were driving home... we stopped to get gas and the most beautiful, perfect rainbow was extending across the sky. The clouds were fabulous and the colors in the sunset were breath.taking.
I got out of the car and stared. I was completely awe.stricken by the beauty.

I was just so overcome by the loveliness painted across the sky.
It was like some sort of message "it's all going to be okay."

As we started to drive away I said to Chris, "you know... I wouldn't want to walk through life with anyone else by my side. The mess, the scares, having babies, raising kiddos, curveballs....and even the rainbows- no one else, I just want you by my side." 

I feel lucky. 
Not because Chris & I have the perfect marriage by any means but because he gets me and because I couldn't adore and love him any more than I do. And even on the days when life is messy, I want him wading through the mud with me. Some days carrying me.

Most days I can't believe he wants me or chose me. 
I know the last thing some people want to read is a long sappy blog post about someone who is in love with their spouse....but int the midst of some sadness today, I have great gratitude for him and what he is in my life.

At my grandma's funeral, my Aunt made a statement that Mama B (thats what we called her) spent her life supporting my grandpa's passion. 
She knew his purpose in life and she dedicated her life to supporting that. 
My grandad was one of the best surgeons ever. If you google "history of ACL surgery" my grandpa is listed as one of the men who carved the way. 

I say all of this because Chris is that for me. 
For the past 7 years he has dedicated so much of himself to finding out what God's purpose is in my life and doing everything he could to make those happen.

In the midst of life's curveballs, im still incredibly grateful.
and very blessed.

My Uncle Scott just emailed me this gorgeous picture- he also saw this beautiful rainbow- he had even a better view, no clouds surrounding it. And he included this poem that my Aunt read at the funeral written by my grandma-


"This is a poem my mother wrote. My wife, Patti, read this poem at my mother’s memorial service on Saturday July 14, 2012."

Random Thoughts

I asked for a vision of eternal love.
He showed me a circle – no beginning, no end.
I asked to see the glory of power and might. I saw lightning – heard thunder.
I asked to see the strength of infinite variety. He showed me a snowflake.
I asked for beauty and peace. He showed me a rainbow.

-­‐Beryl S. Jones


  1. i needed something sweet to read, and you did just that for me. always elegant and poignant.

  2. Love this Casey. So touching and insightful. Praying for a better sono for you tomorrow.

  3. That poem was so beautiful. Continuing to lift you and your family up in prayer!

  4. Casey, don't ever apologize for writing from your heart. There's no reason at all to feel sorry for writing about happy. This world needs more of it, as an example of what a good marriage looks like. Thank you. Praying for you.

  5. This post is beautiful. I've said this here in the past and I'll say it again, I admire your positivity through all of life's curveballs. It's so incredibly uplifting and inspiring. xo


  6. Never be sorry, Casey! If that´s how you feel, write it. It´s much appreciated and this poem is just what I needed today. Thanks for sharing :)

  7. I love reading your posts because even when your not obviously saying it its still so very obvious that you love your husband and your children with such passion.

    I love seeing that there are people in the world like that.

    I love surrounding myself with blogs full of love, passion and inspiration because sometimes i lack that in my real life.

    I hope your next sono has better news. Im not religious so dont pray really but you have been in my thoughts and my positive vibes are out there for you.

    Love from a mumma in New Zealand.

  8. this is so incredibly beautiful. i believe God gives you these stories to share to us, to touch our hearts, to inspire us. so never stop writing from your heart, casey. your honesty is pure and beautiful. <3 :-)


  9. I Love that you feel this way about Chris and your marriage. I love that he is that for you. I love that you share these feelings and thoughts about your marriage and think that more people need to as well. I'm sorry you got bad news and so much is going on. What a beautiful poem, seems so fitting to see the rainbow just as you are laying her to rest. Love you. :)

  10. You always write so beautifully

  11. So sorry about your grandmother, I know I would be a mess. But your faith keeps you moving through and loving, and it's so inspiring. Thank you.


  12. So beautiful. What an incredibly talented family.

  13. I love blog posts about loving your husband! My favorite!

  14. Dear friend, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I hope your sono will turn out to be alright tuesday and I will keep you in my thoughts.

    The rainbow is beautiful and so is the poem. You are lucky with a husband like that. I hope you do realize how lucky he is too having you by his side.


  15. Wow. Casey, your writing is just so beautiful. I feel the exact same way about my husband - and I think that is a very rare thing. I know in my heart that we are meant to be together and that we were meant to find each other and walk hand in hand on this journey. It is such an amazing thing that you realize how blessed you are to have him as your partner. I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother - my heart is breaking for you. Sending you lots of future rainbows, xo. -kendall

  16. This is so beautiful. I love that the promise of the rainbow is the God will never leave us. Your love and committment towards your husband is inspiring and refreshing. Thanks, Casey :)

    Silver from A Silver Snapshot

  17. Casey...
    Beautiful. Simply beautiful.

    Having gratitude when things are going well is easy...
    but having gratitude when things are tough is a very powerful thing.

    I am glad you could see the rainbow in the storm!


  18. You have a way with words. It reminds me that there is so much to be grateful for in this life. Thank you.

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  20. prayers for a good report on Tuesday...He is faithful.

  21. I got chills reading this post! Beautiful! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers! More rainbows are headed your way!

  22. Beautiful post Casey.
    things will get better. We all have especially rainy days. Sending good thoughts to you.

  23. Beautiful words. You are a strong and amazing person, Casey.

  24. Well, this is just beautiful. It gives those of us who've yet to find that kind of love hope. Thank you for sharing this. Sending you a bunch of hugs! xoxo

  25. This is a beautiful post Casey. I never get tired of hearing you poor out your heart..wether its good news or bad. I think the fact that you can see the postive in the midst of so many struggles shows how God is working in and through you..so I'm happy you shared that with all of us. Praying for you and sending you lot's of love sweet friend Xoxo

  26. what a beautiful poem- and a beautiful post. i have always seen rainbows during my some of my darker days...they are so comforting.

  27. continuing to think about you and your fam! hope your sono checkup goes OK!

  28. that poem gave me chills.

    and i know what you mean when you tlk about your relationship with chris because that is what i have with my husband. and sometimes i feel embarassed writing about it because it is sappy and i know a lot of people will just want me to pass the sick bucket, but you have made me realise how writing about this stuff is important.

    love this post.

  29. It's pretty amazing of you to be thankful and fid something amazing during times of sadness. I don't think it's sappy to read at all. I love reading about happy marriages and people in love thru it all. Now days, it is nice to have hope in love and marriage. You guys are a breath of fresh air.


  30. OH I'm so sorry for your loss. Praying for your family and for better news to come.

  31. I love that the symbol God chose to remind us of His covenant reminded you of your earthly covenant with your husband. I'm so glad you aren't wading through the mud of life alone. Praying for your baby.

  32. Wishing you more encouragement & love! How wonderful that you have a best friend and partner who understands every step of it!

    perfectly priya

  33. 'hope you're doing okay. 'hope you continue to unexpectedly find the rainbows after the storm.


  34. so very beautiful!
    you are very blessed to have a husband like this!
    what a beautiful poem and rainbow photo!


  35. I've only been reading your blog for a short time, but every time you talk about your husband, it warms my heart, it gives me hope, it reminds me of what I should be looking for in a relationship. Thanks so much for sharing. I'll pray that the sonogram shows good results.

  36. What a beautiful poem! You are very lucky to have eachother. I hope all goes well with your appointment on fri. Sending prayers your way!

  37. your faith is such an important reminder to see the rainbows. thank you for sharing this side of your life.

  38. This is the first time I have posted. How lovely to see a rainbow when you most need it. Life is beautiful.

  39. As a single woman, still praying to find the person to wade through the mess of life, I'm glad to read that there are people who are crazy in love with their spouses, because it is what I am looking for. It encourages me to keep looking for that person!

    I love reading how much the two of you like and love each other, even in the junk. Too many people give up on each other in the junk. So, thanks for showing that not everyone does!!!

    I hope you are feeling better today with all of the stuff going on.

  40. What a beautiful post! I pray for good news at your apt and for perfect health for you and your new little babe. So glad you can find beauty in your trials.

  41. i love this post! so honest.

  42. THAT was beyond beautiful!!! Thank you so much for sharing such a difficult time. I hope you find some comfort in knowing that you help others through their difficult times simply by sharing yours, wether its the sappy stuff or the sad, its REALLY nice to know that you aren't alone in difficult times.

  43. Gave me goosebumps and teary eyes. What a comforter we have in Christ and what a blessing it is to have a man who reflects that~

  44. so sorry things have been difficult lately :( but how precious to have God speak to you and lift you up and to have such a sweet husband to support you. praying for you, dear.

  45. Praying for you and baby Apple, I hope everything goes well with your next sono : ) So sorry for your loss.

  46. That is lovely...the photo, but mostly your words and feelings for your husband.


  47. you and your family are such a delight. I love that you can share some of life's great troubles we all face so openly, it reminds me that no one is perfect and we all face our own obstacles. so thank you for sharing.

  48. Such a sweet post about Chris. :) I hope the week (especially tomorrow) takes a better turn for you. We saw the same beautiful, double rainbow on Sunday evening in KY. My little Emma is crazy about rainbows! She always sings this song, "A promise, a promise, a rainbow is a promise; That God loves us so very much as long as we shall live." :) She says, "pomise," though, and it's adorable. Take care!

  49. Love the rainbow! Try not to stress. You need positive vibes for your little one. Just sharing a nice story: my princess was born in January at 27 weeks and she is an amazing baby, laughing, rolling, breastfeeding beautifully and about to start solids. Every day that your bub stays inside helps so just relax and try not to stress. If bub is healthy & has no underlying issues then everything should be fine. Have Faith! Sending positive vibes your way x

  50. I've only been subscribed to your blog for a couple weeks and I already look forward to your new posts like a letter from an old friend. My thoughts are with you and your family through these struggles.

    You're a warrior!

    Remeber that without the bumps in the road and the undesired surprises, we would never truly know joy and happiness. :)

  51. i'm sorry to hear you had a rough time of things last week but i'm praying everything goes well with the sono today. i have been looking for some encouragement in my marriage the last few days and God has definitely given me that today, partly through your words here. i really appreciate you putting your thoughts and life out there in such a raw way. thanks!

  52. what a sweet poem. i have always loved rainbows so much. my momma always told me that a rainbow is God's promise that he will never let there be another flood to ruin the earth. ever since i was a little one, that is what i've told people whenever there's a rainbow in the sky. it makes me so happy. it's God's promise to us that he is with us, always. eternal love.

  53. I love this, I love this, I love this so much. I know there are a lot of moms/wives who read and write blogs and support each other through them and I love that - but you can't imagine the support and hope I feel, as a single girl in a massive city, reading something like this. It's basically like a warm blanket with chocolate chip cookies and my own little sign that everything is going to be just fine :)

  54. Who doesn't want to read about a wife and a husband who are in love? I love that. Thanks for sharing <3