Many believers will get to heaven and belong to Him and have completely missed it. They created a life of security for themselves. They built their own kingdoms. You can know the truth of His word and never actually make the transition over where you are living radically.
"If you want to redirect your heart, then lead with your treasure."
This is one of those posts that makes me a teeny anxious to hit publish on. But this Wednesday at church we learned about heaven and rewards and our time here on earth and it stirred up all kinds of feelings inside me.
Normally when this happens the words, the thoughts, they are flooding around in my mind... consuming my thoughts until I let them out.
We aren't supposed to judge. We aren't supposed to assume. But it comes so naturally doesn't it? I constantly am wishing people wouldn't make assumptions about me or judgements about me, yet I can so easily pass them off on others.
I have to constantly check myself.
and remind myself that it isn't my place to decide about that.
Chris and I have this saying that we talk about often, "God, you just sort it out...because I can't make sense of it."
I used to talk about money a lot here and then I quickly realized that was a mistake. The way Chris and I's incomes work now (as 2 artists) is always an adventure, to say the least. We don't have any monthly steady incomes. So on our high months, we have to put away for the months that less comes in. Ever since Chris left his job and we both went freelance we haven't struggled like we used to. But we still get it. I know exactly what it feels like to walk up to the grocery store clerk and not know if my credit card is going to work or not.
I value a dollar.
I mean, we trust that the work will come in month after month. But we aren't naive enough to think that it couldn't change at any moment.
Just scroll through the comments under the $1,500 giveaway post and you will see how many people are struggling.
bills to be paid
the list goes on.....
it weighs heavy doesn't it?
Isn't there something relatable to someone like that though? I believe in my heart that is why Jesus came to earth the way that He did.
as the least of us.
If he had come as rich King,
as humans, with sin nature in us..... they would have probably said "says who?".
It's harder to relate to.
"You say these things but it is coming from someone with a different reality than most of the world."
This thought came to me today as all these thoughts were swirling..." have you made your life so secure and comfortable here on earth that you never truly long for heaven?"
Actually one of the greatest gifts I have been given in the past 7 years, is the time that we struggled. Out of panic I wrote about it too much and that was silly (and now embarrassing) but the truth is, it forever changed my heart and view of people and life here.
I cannot wait to work so hard (long after I need to be working) just to bless my kids and grandkids.
I have daydreams of putting the keys to a new car in someone's mailbox.
can you imagine what that would feel like?
I think about driving to my girl's houses unannounced and cleaning, doing dishes for the day while they go do something fun.
I daydream of someone emailing me that is struggling with money and me hiring them on the spot. That will bless me like crazy to save someone from financial stress.
I have hopes of starting a company my kids can all take over and it provide for their babies.
I have a longing to travel the world and help.
I daydream of building something here on earth not for me but for Him. and for everyone I care about.
On Wednesday night at church this week he talked a lot about rewards.
There is a crown specifically set aside for believers who are out constantly doing for others.
The examples he described blew my mind.
That level of sacrifice.
That level of giving.
I have a longgggggg way to go. A long road ahead. My life needs changing. But my heart desires this.
I received 2 emails in the past 2 days from women desperately struggling financially looking for ways to make some extra grocery money.
I know what that feels like.
I have been there.
I have been there.
I wept long after I answered their emails. I wept for women I barely know.
" Understanding the value of a stockpile in heaven will shape your perspective and your actions on earth. People who store treasure in heaven know all about good enough. Their hands are wide open to His prompting to give things away. They stay in just-good-enough hotels so that their is more to give. They sacrifice on things so that there is more leftover to give away. When someone is in need, they are sleeping on their couch. They welcome everyone and judge no one."
-a beautiful offering
I want to be rich like that.
happy friday friends.