a new life.

January 19, 2012

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I don't know if I have the guts to publish this. I had no intention of talking about this until 12 or 13 weeks...but I am so overcome with emotion right now. 


Scared to say anything and have to deliver bad news again. 


Maybe if I get the courage I will. It's been a bit of a whirlwind and I process best when I write.


I took a positive pregnancy test and instantly felt a rush of panic. (of course after the tears of gratitude and celebration of this new life). Now a mother of four, forever. 


One in heaven, two on earth...and one new one..... It has been days of tears and pleading God to protect my heart if something goes wrong again. It's so early on, it seems like an eternity before I will just let myself breathe.


Just 4 months after the loss of Addison, still all of that so fresh in my mind.


Two days ago I went in for bloodwork and a sono and my sono was empty. Nothing at all. I came home sick to my stomach. I have absolutely the most precious, beautiful and loving doctor and nurses.... they assured me it might just be too early and not to get down.


I sat up late on the computer searching for answers. The entire time I clearly felt God speaking to me...


Casey, the answers aren't there, they are with me.
Casey look to me.
And me alone.


Casey I can do miracles. 


Then this morning my bloodwork came back and they told me I needed to immediately come in for a sono. "We should see a baby by your numbers."


I drove there alone. Turned off the music and just drove in silence. "I am going to be okay. no matter what happens, I can get through this." Over and over again. Clenching my jaw, fighting back tears.


I sat in the waiting room. My legs were shaking. I text Chris, " be prepared. It may not be good."


She called my name. I walked down the long hall. Fighting back tears the whole way down. Before we started I looked at her and said "I am going to be okay....whatever happens I can handle this." I had my hands covering my eyes.....I couldn't look.


Casey, Casey open your eyes.


A BABY.


TEARS. A BABY.


Literally I have never cried out with such thanks and gratitude. An answered prayer. Hope. A baby.


I am still early on. 
And obviously we have a long road to go. I will get bloodwork every 2 days and have a few more sonos. 


But for today, I am praising the One who blessed us with this life. 


And celebrating a new journey. Because no matter how small or young, little baby you are mine. And regardless of what happens, one day I will hold you. 


Heaven or earth, I will hold you.
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292 comments:

  1. Congrats luv. That is amazing. My prayers are with you! xoxoxo

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  2. Congratulations on your wonderful new..so happy for you love <3

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  3. Casey, this is so amazing! I also just found out that I am pregnant for the first time, still early on...such a fragile time. Praying for you and your little one! God is so good! =)

    -Olivia
    thencomesmarriagetheblog.blogspot.com

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  4. oh case!
    praising God for this little miracle already.
    so happy for you... but i know how hard it is to be pregnant after a miscarriage.
    so many fears... so much unknown.
    rest in Jesus.
    let Him swallow your fears... let Him dry your tears.
    look to Him when you're feeling anxious.
    only He can satisfy... and this little precious babe is in His hands.
    lovin' on you from afar...
    praying for you as a sister in Christ.
    xoxo
    congrats, by the way!
    wonderful news!!!

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  5. Praying for your new blessing, and thank you for sharing your awesome news with us!!!

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  6. I am SO happy for you! Our babies will be 11 weeks apart (and probably both born early again...)! Tell Chris CONGRATULATIONS for me. I knew it would happen. When I texted you the day I read my test, I KNEW it wouldn't be long before you shared the news yourself. SO exciting. Love you!!

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  7. Oh friend, what a blessing! Praying for you and your beautiful family :) xoxo

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  8. congratulations casey, i am so happy for you and will be praying for you. god works in such amazing ways!

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  9. Congrats Casey. I am sending out plenty of heartfelt praise and hope for your family.

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  10. Praise the Lord! Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh. SO EXCITED FOR YOU! I'll be excited for you. I can imagine how anxious you may be feeling. I'll be praying for you and this new life. So excited for you. What a blessing!

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  11. Casey, it is beautiful and admirable how much you open your heart to God and the world. Thank you for sharing the news with us. Know you and your family will be in my prayers. I will pray for your strength and for God's will be done. He alone can do miracles, but can make them through us.

    Congratulations!!

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  12. Oh sweet Casey! Congratulations to you and your beautiful family!! I will be praying for you!!

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  13. Casey,
    I'm so excited for you! Our God is truly a God miracles! He amazes me every day! Congratulations! (:
    I hope you have a smooth pregnancy!!

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  14. Oh my word, Casey. This makes me so happy. I am so excited for you! No matter what happens down the road, you are a mother of four and nothing and no one can ever take that away from you! God's holding your baby's precious life in His hands!

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  15. casey how wonderful! will be praying for you. faith & strength, my friend.

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  16. Congratulations! I have tears in my eyes. I pray that God will protect you and the sweet one growing inside of you! Many hugs to you and your family!

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  17. You know you have an entire community of us praying for you and your baby right now!

    I have been in your shoes 4 times. Reading a positive pregnancy test, overcome with joy and fear. Terrified that what happened last time will happen again. But I can also testify that God does amazing things. I am so grateful for the beautiful baby boy He gave to me when I thought we could never have a baby.

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  18. Oh Casey.
    I am so happy for you guys. I'll be praying for you guys everyday. Heavenly father is watching over you and your family.
    XOXO

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  19. CONGRATS Casey! So excited for you. Your post made me well up. So thankful for you right now.

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  20. Praise, praise to Jesus! Tears of joy for you!

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  21. Congrats Casey!! Praying for the healthiest & happiest pregnancy possible!

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  22. Congrats!!!! You are in God's precious hands:)) And praying for great news along the way for you and your newest little one! God bless!!!

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  23. Congrats!!! This is a blessing you deserve!!!

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  24. Awww congratulations Casey!!! What a blessing and I'm praying for a wonderful pregnancy for you! You're such an amazing mother :)

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  25. I have been following your blog for about 6 months now. I remember reading about sweet Addison and it brought tears streaming down my face. It stuck with me for quite awhile. When I read this, I shouted out in my head 'YES'! I am so happy for you and you are in my prayers, Casey. You are a beautiful person and I wish the best for you in this journey....

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  26. CONGRATS CASEY! Praying for you :)

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  27. Casey! A new yummy smelling baby for you! :D

    anywhere-is.net

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  28. Praying for you lady!! What an unbelievable blessing!! Congrats!! XOXO!!

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  29. Tears,tears,tears for you Mama..............

    I know this is anxiety.
    I know this pain.
    I know what its like to look at that little dot on the screen and plead with God that you get to keep this one.

    Prayers for you and that little one.

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  30. wonderful! absolutely wonderful. congrats and hope for a very healthy baby.

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  31. You are such a sweet soul! I am so happy for you and will be praying that everything will go well with your new little one!

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  32. Good luck hun! Try not to worry, it does no good for either you or your baby. Its hard not to but just remain joyful and positive :)

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  33. I am so happy for you! Each day as I pray for the safety of my growing baby, I will pray for your new blessing as well. :)

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  34. Oh my sweet friend. . . I am overjoyed for you! :-) You have another little one! :-)

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  35. Congrats little mama! Thanks for sharing the exciting news! All the more prayers sent up to keep your new love safe and sound in your womb and in cradled in HIS hands.

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  36. praying for you and your little one...I know exactly how you feel! I lost a little one and then a year later I got pregnant with another. At my first ultrasound, there was nothing to be seen (just like you) I started to panic, but the doctor said it could be early. I had to bloodwork, every 2 days for a week. Then I went back and saw my dear little one. There she was! I continued to do bloodwork every 2 days for another week and then once a week for the next month. Everything continued to be fine. And then exactly nine months later I gave birth to my little girl.

    I had a few minor complications during my pregnancy like, gestational diabetes and then I went into early labor at 7 months and I was on bed rest--but it was nothing knowning that my dear little was inside of me safe and sound and just growing away.

    My little girl is now 7 months and everyday I look at her and see God's beauty and promises. It may be scary at times, believe me, but when you first hear that cry, all the worry just melts away.

    sorry for the long novel. just wanted you to know that you are not alone. I've been there. I know exactly how you feel.

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  37. I have never met you, but your blog has helped me find my faith. YOU have helped me and inspired me to take the walk towards God and let him lead me the way my life needs to go. Having said that, I have tears of happiness for you. I pray that this wonderful news continues with a wonderful birth. You will be in my prayers every day. Your writing helped me when I was lowest, you have showed that even through the toughest times relying on God to do his work is all you have to do.
    God Bless.

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  38. WOW congratulations I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face in excitement! What a beautiful blessing...He is the maker and there is nothing that is too hard for HIM!

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  39. Yay!! I will be praying every day. It is so very scary each and every time. But God will be with you no matter what.

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  40. so exciting and such a beautiful experience! congrats!!! <3

    http://livelaughandlovealwaysss.blogspot.com/

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  41. Rejoicing with you sweet friend:)

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  42. Yay! What a blessing! Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Your post brought tears to my eyes. I have had a some little ones in heaven too. Blessings to you, dear one. :)

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  43. Praise the Lord!!! I am SOOOO happy for you :)

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  44. Praise God for this miracle. Remember... He only gives us what we can handle. I'll be praying! Congrats to you and your family!! :)

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  45. Praise God!! Remember... He only gives us what we can handle! I'll be praying. Congrats to you and your family, Casey :)

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  46. Praying for you and your new little life! Congrats, Casey!

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  47. I'll say a prayer for you and your new little life.
    Beautiful post as always your honesty and grace shine through

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  48. First time commenter here, but just wanted to say CONGRATS! I lost my first baby (early... at 5 weeks...) and had so many of these same emotions the second time. It's a scary joy, don't you think? But joy all the same. Thank you, Jesus. My baby girl is 6 months now, and I am still missing my first child, but so grateful for both of them. And like you said, some day I will embrace that precious first in heaven.
    Hannah www.thrivingthirty.tumblr.com

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  49. Congrats! So excited for you and your family. I have 4 babies in Heaven, 3 here with me and I am 15 weeks pregnant. I know that feeling of not being able to breathe the first 12 weeks. Praying for you and your new little one.

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  50. Praise the Lord :) What a miracle. This post made me cry and reminded me to have faith and to believe.
    Thank you for being so honest and open, it means the world to have a role model like you.
    You are an amazing woman and momma!

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  51. I wish you could have seen my reaction to this post.
    I was literally dancing. My friends were looking at me like I'd lost it. Casey's having a baby!!! Then I cried. & could not be more happy for you. I feel so blessed that you are blessed. You are a true inspiration. Everyday. Praise this new journey. No matter the outcome you have been blessed.
    xoxo
    Ellie

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  52. Congratulations to you and your beautiful family Casey! What a blessing! I will be praying for you and your little one! Hugs! p.s. your giving me baby fever ;-D

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  53. So incredibly happy for you. God is SO good.

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  54. So incredibly happy for you. God is SO good.

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  55. Casey, TEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am SOOOO excited for you, thankful to the Lord for keeping your heart through this. Oh my word, and what you said brought me chills, it's so true:

    "Casey, the answers aren't there, they are with me.
    Casey look to me.
    And me alone."

    Ahhh.... I am so anxious for you precious friend, prayers for your peace and this beautiful little life, and lots of love.

    xx franchesca

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  56. OH Praise the Lord Casey! What amazing wonderful news! I'm so thankful! This one's going to be wonderful. Healthy. Perfect! And so are you sweet momma! Can't wait!!!!!

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  57. Sending you positive vibes Casey!

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  58. Casey, that is so wonderful! Praise God for the amazing miracles he puts in our lives. I am so happy for you and Chris and I will definitely be praying for you as your journey continues!

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  59. I am so happy for you Casey! Remember if you need us we are here to lean on. So many people care and we will all be thinking good thoughts.

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  60. You are in my prayers Casey! Lean on God during this journey and He will be everything you need! :)

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  61. tears filled my eyes as I read your beautifully written post, congrats on the sweet miracle growing inside of you! :)

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  62. My eyes just filled up with tears reading this! Congrats to you and your family!!! :) I'll be keeping you and that baby in my thoughts!! :)

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  63. This made me teary eyed. I can't imagine the fear that is there, but God is right. He has the answers. So happy for you!

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  64. Oh, Casey! I'm so so so excited for you and your sweet family. You'll be in my prayers for a safe pregnancy, strength, and peace. I know you have worries but know that the Lord wants you to lean on him. I totally believe that stress and worry are not good for the body (I've seen it cause problems in my own life) so hand over your burdens to Him. He will take care of you.

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  65. I will be praying for you!
    What a beautiful, happy time!
    God is so good :)

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  66. :) wonderful news! Praise Jesus.

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  67. oh Casey!! I am crying for you right now ! praise God - xo
    Lisa

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  68. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful news! You will be in so many prayers! XOXO

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  69. Congratulations! May God continue to protect you and your entire family, keeping you all safe and healthy.

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  70. Such wonderful news! This brought tears to my eyes. Congratulations, and I will say a prayer for you and your newest little one. :)

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  71. CASEY I am so so so extremely happy for you. you are such an amazing person and such an amazing mother. you deserve everything your heart desires. I am so glad that the Lord blessed you with this. Good luck! You'll be in my prayers.

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  72. Oh Casey that is so wonderful!! Thinking of you and this new blessing always :)

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  73. SO HAPPY TO READ THIS! :) love you!!! <3 xoxo

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  74. I am so unbelievably happy for you!!!
    I think from now on every time I hear anyone celebrate a baby I will tear up with happiness in my heart for them. The chance of having more babies was taken away from me last year and it has been an emotional journey. I SO wanted more children. But I have four. I love them all. My last one was a miracle.

    http://someoneinmind.blogspot.com/2011/03/gift-of-life-part-one-in-middle-of.html

    Love you Casey!

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  75. all available fingers, toes, hairs and anything else that I may cross are now in yours and bitty babies names for extra extra good luck and blessings. Congratulations Casey!

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  76. Oh congratulations to you and your husband!! I'll be thinking of you and praying. Such amazing news.

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  77. There isn't anyone who deserves this kind of news right now more than you. I'm so so happy for you! :)

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  78. Congratulations!! Don't let fear spoil your joy. A new life... :)

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  79. Wow! Congratulations! Wishing you the best dear, but either way it's a blessing to simply be enraptured and caught up in such beautiful moments and emotions.

    All is well.
    Love,
    Rachel

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  80. I don't even remember how I stumbled upon your blog but I'm so thankful I did. In a society that feels to be lacking God, family, and the respect of the sacred commitment of marriage your family has given me hope. I admire you, your faith, and your ability to accept yourself for who you are. I pray for you and the precious the little life your carrying. Congrats to you and your family. In Jesus Name I bless you and this baby.

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  81. Praying for you!!! This is God's baby :) It's in His hands--which is the very best place to be.
    Love, Leigh

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  82. Congratulations to you and your husband! I'm so excited for you! I will be praying for you to have a safe and healthy pregnancy :)

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  83. the way you talk about your babies warms my heart. I had a miscarriage (my only pregnancy) in October 2010 and it was hard for me to process that I lost my child. I don't think I had let myself connect fully with our baby because they had told me I lost it in the beginning when I hadn't. Two days after I found out I was really pregnant, I actually did lose it. Anyways, it took me a while to feel excited that I have a baby. In heaven. Waiting on me. Wow.

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  84. Awww, Casey! Congratulations! Everything will be okay. Just stay strong and keep praying, and take care of yourself and your newest baby!

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  85. Oh Casey! Praise the Lord!!!!!!

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  86. Praise God I'll be praying for you Casey!

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  87. I don't think I took one breath while reading this! God is so good! I am so happy for you and your family and too your new little miracle! :)

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  88. your posts have a way of always tearing me up and I learn so much from the tone you set your life too. I wish you many Blessings Casey for yourself, your family and this growing child of yours. Peace...

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  89. praise God. Will keep you in my prayers, sweet mama.

    xx

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  90. I'm praying for you, your family, and your new little baby today Casey.

    -Kelsey

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  91. I had this feeling you were going to announce something like this soon. I went through this fear too sweet one, it is so hard, waiting for the "all clear"... hang tight, pray... have you thought of taking baby aspirin just in case? I took baby aspirin and used a natural progesterone cream daily until 13 weeks (Restored Balance is the only one I would recommend)... baby aspirin and progesterone usually together address most issues that lead to miscarriage. Just something practical that might help. And pray! God is faithful.

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  92. Congrats!! I remember that feeling of wanting to be excited, but being so afraid. God can handle your anxiety. He will help you make it through! Praying that this little bean will be around to stay :)

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  93. This was a truly beautiful post. Thank you.

    -Lindsey

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  94. OH CASEY!!! this is such exciting news!! Sometimes I have a really hard time staying positive at other people's pregnancies because I myself have had a terrible time getting pregnant. We are almost 2 1/2 years of being open to it, and nothing. I'm not going to lie when I say I have an immediate gut reaction of jealousy. But I am truly so happy for you. I will pray for a wonderful pregnancy and healthy babe for you and chris <3

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  95. So happy for you!!! For being such an incredible mother I hope God blesses you with tons of little tots! you're in my prayers!
    xo

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  96. SO happy for you! I knew it wouldn't be long before there was some exciting news!! Praying for you!!

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  97. oh casey, how wonderful! blessings on you and this little one during this precious time! rejoicing with you!

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  98. Hallelujah!! God is so amazing. Praise Him!

    Kristina
    Something 2 Write About

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  99. Casey I am so happy for you! I am expecting our 2nd baby in July...and I have had more fear and worry over this one than I thought possible. I've never miscarried, but my heart has been aching with the "what if" ever since I found out...because I've seen the heart ache first hand, even through your beautiful blog.

    I'm thankful though for the fear because it leaves me feeling so raw at times that I can do nothing but show my fragile hopes to Jesus and trust that He knows my heart. That gives me such joy and peace...and the ability to just be thankful for whatever He gives. Be it a healthy beautiful baby in 6 months, or a heart breaking trial that will leave me longing more for heaven!

    Anyway...I'm so thankful for the openness with which you share your life, and I will be praying for those numbers to multiply each day!! Grow baby grow <3

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  100. Congratulations on the new life that God has blessed you with!!!! I will be praying that God will protect the new baby that He has blessed you with!!! You are such a sweetie!!!

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  101. So wonderful! I will be praying for you and your new little life. Congratulations!

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  102. Congratulations. God is so good! x

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  103. Congrats Casey! As someone who has felt the pain of miscarriage..I also understand the anxiety that comes along with being pregnant! Enjoy each moment! Praying that all is well with you these next 9 months.
    Ashley:)

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  104. Way to be courageous! I see this a step of faith. Praying that God continues to bless you during this time and gives you the peace that surpasses understanding to guard your heart and mind!
    Blessing to you and your family!!
    So wonderful!
    Très bien
    redemptionisbeautiful.blogspot.com

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  105. I have never commented on your blog before. I. Started reading you shortly before your loss. I cried the day I read that post post like I knew you personally. You have such a beautiful soul and I am so happy for you and your wonderful family. God is so good. Congratulations.

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  106. Congratulations! SO happy for you!

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  107. I am so unbelievably happy for you. Tears are welling in my eyes. God will be with you. Sending love and prayers!

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  108. Congratulations! You are such an amazingly strong woman!!

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  109. Beautiful Casey! Wonderful news. Prayers and good thoughts for you. I'm so happy... God is great! Much love to you... Bless you and keep you... I'm crying and so stinking happy for you my heart just might burst!
    Hugs

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  110. Congratulations Casey!!! So happy for you, will be praying for you and the new baby :)

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  111. This is so exciting! Congrats to your beautiful family. You deserve it so much, and he or she will love having you two as parents.

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  112. So happy for you and chris! Keeping your family in my prayers.

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  113. I am so happy for you. I am a new reader to your blog and I looked through some of your archive to kind of catch up and I read about your loss and my heart ached for you. God is good and he can do miracles!

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  114. It's the craziest thing...it's impossible for me to visit your blog and leave with dry eyes. Congratulations on the pregnancy, Casey!

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  115. Baby, you are gonna freak out when you see the post I'm about to send you. The Lord is so good!!! I am completely in awe of his plans that unfold so crazy and surprising and beautiful before our very eyes. With you right now in heart, girl. Big giant hug with delight for you!!!

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  116. beautiful soul, casey. thinking about you and chris with this heartwarming news :)

    xoxo - kylie
    www.livinglovingandphotographing.com

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  117. All of us are rejoicing with you, Casey!! You have this whole community of people loving you & praying for you. This little one is definitely in His hands, friend!! Praying for all of you tonight. XOXO.

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  118. Oh sweet baby! welcome! prayers to you all.

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  119. this is such wonderful news casey! so happy for you and your family. i will keep you and your new little baby in my prayers!

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  120. Casey, I am beyond words , just tears of joy running down my cheeks, I am praying for Gods holy favor and supernatural protection, you have such a beautiful heart and are a wonderful mommy, keep yor strength and let Gos hold you in the coming days, so very happy for you guys. Xoxo

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  121. This is beauty in its purest form.

    So, so beautiful.

    Elise X

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  122. So happy for you! God is GOOD. I will say prayers for you and little baby every day :)

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  123. Casey,
    Congratulations and praise the Lord! I am so happy for you. As a momma who has miscarried, I know the terror that can overcome the joy, but I rejoice with you in this new life. I've been praying that God would give you another precious baby. Praise Him!

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  124. amazing! you are in my prayers sweet girl!!

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  125. What wonderful news... Congratulations to you and you family.

    Jeanna @ dramaqueenseams.com

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  126. So much love for you my friend.

    You are in my heart.

    Always.

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  127. oh casey, sending love your way. so so so much love.

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  128. Casey, Casey.... oh Holy is the Lord, God Almighty. Praise His Holy Name!! He has this very special plan for you and your new baby... praying for you every day. Love you my Dallas sister!!

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  129. oh Casey, you just touched me so... thank you for always sharing your amaizing heart with us. Congratulations to you and your sweet family! I will be praying!!

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  130. Thank you Jesus! He is so good! Praying for you, xo

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  131. I truly gasped out loud when I saw the photo associated with this post - you and your family are so heavily in my thoughts. Hugs, loves and prayers from CO.
    God bless!

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  132. beautiful!! hoping for the best and that the days may go quickly for you.
    i am a new reader. your blog and life are beautiful... i wish i could take art classes from you.

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  133. Reading this brought tears to my eyes! Congratulations and prayers to you.

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  134. To add to the hundreds whose prayers are with you and that precious little soul I am so excited for you and will be praying for you.God is faithful and prayer does work.your beauty in light of what you lost was such an inspiration and I am so excited to see your family grow!

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  135. u r a blessed girl indeed and your perspective is such a blessing to hear...i hear it coming from you heart and it makes me so happy for you and that much more prayerful that you will get to hold this baby on earth...

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  136. Congratulations Casey and family! It's going to be a beautiful journey for sure!

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  137. Oh gosh, you have tears from me too here! Sending lots of prayers your way to keep you and baby safe.

    Emma xx

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  138. I couldn't be happier for you and your little family. I had the same scare early on in my pregnancy. Even though they said it was probably just too early, I too scoured the net for answers. And even though I am almost at the end, I feel like I am still holding my breath, feeling like I can't believe it completely until I hold him in my arms.
    I love your quote about holding this baby, either on earth or in heaven. I wish I had your faith.

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  139. Praying for you both <3 Congrats Casey! I'm so so happy for u <3 xoxox

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  140. Casey I discovered your beautiful blog just a few days ago and have been re-reading it from the start.
    Your words and pictures are wonderful and your honesty is refreshing.

    I understand your fear well, I had a miscarridge a few years ago and truely understood what it felt to have your heart broken. Then about 17 months ago I woke up one day and knew I was pregnant again, I was terrified, I put it to the back of my mind pretended it was only my imagination and kept it from my family. I didn't have any of the early issues of tiredness or morning sickness, which mean't keeping it from my husband was easy but the lack of issues just convinced me something was destined to go wrong. At about 9 weeks my husbands figured it out but I felt so sad I couldn't give the the excitment of showing him a postive test and being happy about it.It was another 2 weeks before I had the courage to take a test,until I saw it written down I could fool myself it wasn't real. He was happy I was fearful. In the uk the maternity care is different its only at the end of the first trim you have a sono, I went to that appointment prepared for the worst, what I saw on the screen took my breath away and filled my heart with more hope and joy than I ever thought possible, and my little boy continues to do so everyday since.

    Be brave be strong be trusting and hopeful,everything comes good in the end.
    Congratulations to you and your beautifal family, my thoughts and prayers as well as all the other people whose hearts have been touched by you are with you.

    Jess x

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  141. Oh my goodness, this post is truly written from the heart, you made tears come to my eyes. You have been blessed with a little miracle, i pray for you that everything goes well. Congratulations!

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  142. I am brand new to your blog. I read today about your good news and I was overcome with emotion. I prayed for you already and will continue to lift you up in prayer.

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  143. omg amazing!! CONGRATS sweetie!! wishing you ALL the best!!!

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  144. Oh wow!!!!! Many congratulations to you and your family! I had tears streaming down my face!!!! What a happy moment!

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  145. This is so exciting!!!! I'll be praying for you and baby :)

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  146. God is so good!

    Adelyn
    www.randomnessfromtheaddiecorner.blogspot.com

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  147. Casey, I will remember you in my prayers, this is wonderful news!
    No matters what happens, you are strong enough to get through it, the love of God is bliss and though you are a sensitive soul you are also incredibly strong!!
    I think anybody who reads your blog will agree :)

    Happy weekend & keep posting for us faithful followers so we can be happy for and with you :)
    Oana Fairy Mom

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  148. You are such a great person & inspiration. Prayers for that special little growing inside you. Xoxo

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  149. Congratulations Casey!!! That is so exciting and such a testament to God's graciousness and faithfulness to REDEEM. I will be in prayer for you (and others) who are now pregnant after a heartbreaking loss. God is good, and it's so sweet to see your knowledge of that threaded throughout your story. Praise God!

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  150. What beautiful news! Prayers going out to you and your family.

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  151. Congrats....you will be in my prayers through whatever does happen!

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  152. Congratulations! Your family will be in our prayers.

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  153. Congratulations! Your family will be in our prayers.

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  154. This brought happy joyous tears to my eyes. Congratulations to you. xo.

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  155. Your stories always touch me in such a special way. I love your emotion, honesty, and sharing yourself even during a vulnerable time. Many prayers to you and your family. And a special one for your unborn love.

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  156. Thank you Jesus!!!!!!!! You are in my prayer's!!!! So happy for you Beautiful Mama!!!!!

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  157. congratulations casey! praying for you and your baby!

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  158. It is such a nice change to hear real stories of heartache and joy. I admire you for being one who is comfortable with spreading the word of God. I will continue to be a faithful follower.

    www.kinsleyandadam.blogspot.com

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  159. Thoughts and prayers to you and yours Casey!

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  160. Such wonderful wonderful news. Praise God from whom all blessings flow. :)

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  161. Casey,
    You are SO brave for posting about this. I know how hard it can be. But I am so glad that you did and that you are celebrating. After my first miscarriage, I too got pregnant again about 4 months later. But that time I didnt tell anyone (except the hubs of course)! But I was too afraid.
    It was too hard for me the first time to have to tell people about losing the baby every time someone who didnt know would ask how I was or how far along I was.

    It was so hard for me to the first time. I got scared. I didnt want anyone to know. I wanted to keep it a secret until I know we were "in the clear". I'm not sure why I thought that would be best. But looking back, I dont think it was. I did end up losing that baby too. And I just felt miserable. I hated the fact that I didnt celebrate his life! I hated that I didnt tell anyone about being pregnant so that I could share the joy I felt for my baby. And for a long time I felt like it was MY FAULT. Like I didnt appreciate the life growing inside me, so he was taken from me.

    I know now thats not true. But it was a struggle. SO I am HAPPY for you! I am glad to read about your excitement for this new life, even if you are scared. You are so brave. Congratulations.

    ~Maria-Isabel

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  162. The first time i read your blog was when you lost Addison, your truthfulness and raw emotion was amazing and i wept for the loss of your little one. I am an L&D nurse and although I have not experienced the deep pain you have, I have seen it firsthand and can understand you wanting to wait until after your first trimester....from reading your blog, it seems as if you couldnt be yourself unless you shared with your readers. God is soverign .Congrats on the beautiful bean you are carrying. You will be in my prayers.

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  163. Congratulations to you and yours. Wishing you all the best. You certainly deserve it.

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  164. You are brave. You have incredible strength. And we are all praying for you and your new little one.

    Congrats on the wonderful news!

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  165. Casey your post touched my heart cause Ive just recently went through the same thing. Only it took us 2 weeks of sonograms every 2 days before they could finally see the baby. Now i'm 14 weeks and feeling better. However I have a long road as well. My uterus is completely upside down and severely tilted to the right side. I wish you the best of luck as I know we will both be mothers again in a few months! I'll be praying for you!

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  166. Oh my gosh, I am so happy for you and your beautiful family. :) Prayers for a safe and healthy pregnancy. :)

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  167. Congratulations - so happy for you! I've been following your blog for a while but have never commmented - may God give you his peace during your pregnancy.

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  168. Casey, I have just started blogging and reading blogs, and yours is truly inspiring. I am praying for you and your family during this time. Thank you for sharing and being so open and honest.

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  169. PTL!!!! i too have lost a baby. she lived for 21 days in the nicu at arkansas childrens hosptial. and the thought of getting pregnant again scared the daylights outta me. so i just wanna say congrats for being strong enough!!! be well! i wish nothing but the best for you and that little life. its so exciting!!! and your readers and bloggy friends will be with you every step of the way!!!!

    im so excited!!!

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  170. Casey, I just came to your blog from "Little Miss Mommy's" blog, after having just read your post about having lost Addison and wanted to read more about this strong woman who guest blogged for her on loss & strength. Only to find WOW! BLESSINGS!! Congratulations - on another baby, on more hope, on continuing to be the strong woman it sounds like you are. Just THANK YOU for sharing that strength with us all - and please know that you will be covered in prayer as you away details of the growth & health of your new addition. I'm putting a reoccurring reminder on my Outlook calendar to pray for you & your family & your new addition. God is good in ALL THINGS, ALL THE TIME.
    Much love from a stranger, Jessie Warren

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  171. Congratulations! Sending prayers your way as you begin this journey!

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  172. Casey what a wonderful notice!! congrats!!No matter what, God knows, that does things, and if it didnt work last time I'm sure this is a second chance and that everything will turn out a great .. This new baby will be tested for all your effort, joy, tears, fear you've gone to be a better person from here I pray to God that everything goes well, and grant us the joy of knowing another Wiegand beautiful baby. Dont be discouraged casey always with your head held high and your faith in God!
    xoxo

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  173. Congratulations!!!!!! Thank the Lord!!! -- I'm so happy for you!!!

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  174. Tears are literally falling! Praying for you and your little miracle! Such a beautiful story!

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  175. I have tears in my eyes Casey. What wonderful news!!! What a blessing and answer to prayer. I have been there- waiting for a sonogram with a sick stomach and terrified of bad news. Praise our God who is faithful in the midst of our fears, and is always better than anything we imagine for ourselves.

    My husband always says to me- even if the worst were to happen, Jesus is the most important thing in our lives and He is better than anything else. We hold fast to His word and His truth and know that he holds our hearts and loves us with our fears more than we can imagine. He always has our good in mind & he has chosen to give this blessing *now* So we will enjoy it, and be thankful and praise him for his goodness that we don't deserve.

    prayers for a healthy pregnancy and little one. How wonderful!

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  176. Casey, wow! My heart skipped a beat reading your post. Sending positivity to you and your family!

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  177. Casey, wow! My heart skipped a beat reading your post. Sending positivity to you and your family!

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  178. congrats! How exciting! I am so happy for you! I have tears! Yay! God is amazing!!

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  179. Congratulations sweet Casey! God has wonderful things planned for you!

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  180. My oh my, how stinkin' exciting!!! I'm beyond THRILLED for your sweet little family. You are blessed beyond belief. Praying for health!

    www.jenandjercook.blogspot.com

    Many, many blessings,
    xoxo
    ~Jeni

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  181. that's one of the most emotional post i've ever read. so full of love to your children (every of them). The new baby will be a miracle, like your first kids.
    I pray for you and your family that everything wents great.
    i know how it fells to loose someone you love for ever.

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  182. I just started reading your blog and am SO happy for you! As a mom who has one child on earth and two in heaven I can understand your fears. But God is right. HE holds the future as well as our hearts. I will pray for the safety of your precious baby! Congratulations!!

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  183. Congratulations! I will pray for peace for you and for health and a LOOOONG stay inside mom for this new life!

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