After I wrote that letter to my "little" self last week and read through all of the amazing comments...I started thinking, I should write one to each of my kiddos.
You are so precious.
From day one your spirit has been extraordinary. Every moment I look at you, you take my breath away.
I worry about you often. Your brother too.
I worry that your heart will be broken. I worry that you will get sick, or that I will get sick and not be around to protect you.
Sweet Ainsleigh... someday you will want to be told you're beautiful. You will want to feel wanted and desired, special, unique and beautiful. But wait. Wait for your husband- guard everything until then. Because they will all leave you empty.
You were designed to desire this, but let Him fill it.
Right now you have the cutest teeth in the world. Something about the little gaps make my heart completely melt. And your sweet little personality is just the icing on the cake.
Baby girl- follow your dreams. I don't care how much money you make or what your status is...God designed you for something, be that.
Be different. Be yourself.
Whoever you choose to love, I will love. Because I know that by me loving him, I am loving you well.
All those kids in school or at church...if they are mean, someday that will seem like a passing breeze... not worth one single tear.
And the teachers who are rough, they are probably going through something. So try and love them even though it will be hard.
My precious girl, someday you might have babies of your own...and just the thought of it makes my eyes well up with happy tears. That you, my sweet girl, will experience the powerful love of being a mama.
And you might lose one too. Or a few. And you'll be okay. Just lean on Him- because whether we understand or not...all things work together for the good of those who love Him.
It's not always the "cool" thing to stand up for Christ. But it's worth it. You may save someone. You may help someone. And to shine for Him is the greatest honor of all.
You will want to be loved.
Know no matter what you face, ainsleigh kate....your mama loved you with every drop of her soul. And being your mama is a gift. I love you beautiful girl.