If you really knew me....
You would know that turning the music up and putting the windows down in my car makes me happy.
You would know that I would rather have candy & chocolate over flowers any day.
You would know I struggle with fear.
and with insecurity.
and that I thought when I was younger that once you got married you are suddenly not insecure anymore...and just automatically love yourself.
You'd know that I was wrong about that.
If you knew me you'd know I love peanut butter/ turkey sandwiches and that I don't drink coffee.
You'd know that I struggle with thinking if you are beautiful, you are loved... and how the past 10 years I have slowly learned to accept how jacked up that is.
You would know that my kids and Chris are my world.
If you really knew me,
you'd know that I don't need much sleep and things don't stress me out very easily.
You would know that I love to write and paint and walk and dream.
You would know that I have dreams and a lot of them entail my kid's "someday" dreams.
You would know that I hate smells of any kind.
That I love long walks at night with my family, but don't take them enough.
If you knew me, you'd know that I fear losing someone I love.... or fear I won't be around to protect and love my kids as long as I hope to.
You would know that I love the candy "riesens" and literally can't have them in the house because I will eat the entire bag.
You'd know that I love a clean house.
and that house chores don't bother me all that bad- grocery shopping is my least favorite.
If you really knew me, you'd know that I hate scary movies....and am terrified of rollercoasters.
If you knew me, you'd know that everyday I eat a tiny bowl of cool whip with chocolate morsels. And that silly things like stickers make me happy.
If you really knew me, you'd know my favorite book is "A Beautiful offering" .
and that I would love to meet the author someday.
If you knew me . really knew me- you would know what makes me tick
and what my goals and passions are.
what about you?